ive spent a fair bit of time here lurking around, reading blogs etc. i can relate to so many of you girls and your lives. and i just sit here thinking when's it my turn?
my life has this incredible tendency to push back whenever i try and do something for myself (laser, hair appointment, a night out) something always comes up.
a bit of background story is required i suppose. im a mechanic, and run my own shop after hours. in winter times, my primary job isn't enough income to pay the bills so the secondary income is a required. recently, business has picked up a lot in my after hours requiring me to either turn away work, or work every hour possible. i have in fact for the past 6 months or so. its taken its toll on me.
as i said, something always comes up. a customer insisting on a schedule that clashes with my own, my parents needing me to be somewhere, or do something for them when i had previous plans, work requiring me to stay late, or work a weekend.
i just dont know how to make this all work. i have no life outside of work anymore, and i feel as though work expects the world from me and im not achieving it.
another big frustration is i feel like im losing any bit of femininity that ive gained over the years of struggling. im at a loss for what to do here.
had to vent, im out of ideas.