Understanding the past and hopes for the future.

Hello Everyone. I dont post very much here, but I do read and absorb everything!!  I know I should also share, so here goes. 

  Ok, I'm sure many of my sister-kin will agree, there are multiple 'anniversaries' you can mark as a transgender  2-spirit.  One I'm very keenly aware of, is coming out to my SO last year about this time.  Since then, This last year has been hectic as I rabidly research, explore, and try to come to understand and accept the woman inside I've hidden from the world for half a century.  If not for my SO,  I would not have made the progress I have.  It was she who called the local clubs, and talked to the leaders, and therapists, and others and, I hesitate to say 'pushed'  (tho that is mostly accurate...) lets say 'strongly encouraged' me to pursue understanding my 'transness', and by doing so, figure out who I really am now, and by extension,  who I will eventually become.  For the record, I am (almost) 100% comfortable with saying I have always been and will always be, a woman, heart, mind,  and soul.  That still frightens me however because of my fears of what the future holds.  Will I lose everything?? The most important of which is the love of my life, my sweet angel??   The truth I must confront is, I may.  But my fervent hope is, that my story will go the same way of this couple in the story I've linked below, as I found this story and in reading I started a river of tears that was hard to stem,  and I knew when reading it I would have to share.  I pray every day for a future like this.  For all of you who confront the specter of losing the ones you love thru the brave act of living as your authentic self,  I give you a vision of one possible future.  Hold on to that hope, and give your SO all the time and love they need to stay with you thru your journey.  With love,  all things are possible.  Cliche? yep. But this is my ideal view of the future.

I give you..(from my perspective)...a true love story.

http://10thousandcouples.com/issue/august-2012/article/just-another... 

Erin (Lyssa)  Gentry

PS:  Thank you from the bottom of my heart to all the ladies who share their emotions, thoughts, and heartfelt stories here. It has helped me personally more than I can possibly convey.