Many night i lay in my bed awake,
Quivering from the cold that causes my body to ache.
How come this happens to the best of us,
How come we are not the ones to trust?
I proved my honesty by telling you,
you yell at me just and say we were never true.
You were not my experimental gain,
You were everything that kept me sane.
As i walk out that door a piece of me dies,
Now i mourn myself with me the endless cries.
To many things happen way to fast,
thinking back of what i could have done to make it last.
If i did that i would not be true to you or I,
and tell you i love you while i look in your eye.
endless times i tried to hide,
endless times you said you will be by my side.
countless days i count thinking of the past,
countless night i mold my own cast.
to seal my self away from everyone,
never see the light from the sun.
Deep inside this monster grows,
Everyday the more it shows.
Changing me to a person i can not be,
To something mean and hateful that all can see.
why oh why does it hurt,
why oh why cant i just bury me in dirt.
Get it over and done with, so other take my place,
happy and glad with smiles on their face
Many happy souls many happy lives,
take a walk in my shoes as they walk over a thousand knives..