Therapy session number 3

Well, no talk about fear this time.  I also started on laser sessions to get rid of the beard ... yay!

I'm feeling in this surreal space for the time being.  Kind of empty headed, kind of going clickity-clack down the railroad track as I think of things I need to move closer to transition. 

As I said, started on the laser stuff.  Today at therapy we talked about hormones ... and I'm going to start taking them.  My therapist needs to write up the "letter".  It's weird, I'm feeling pretty calm about the whole thing.  Kind of surprising for some reason, maybe I thought I'd have more mixed feelings, maybe thought there would be more struggle.  I think I've spent so many years just pushing this issue to the background.  Then it comes back up, then push it back ...

I don't know.  I think after the last "fear" session, I saw how a bit silly it was.  Not totally silly because there are hurdles of course, but I've been holding back, ignoring a part of myself for so long.  But somehow there's been a shift.  I'm tired of those old bad habits.  So onward I go.

I guess going on hormones will give me lots of stuff to write about in the future. :)