For a couple years now I have been suffering from depression, just this year I have been put on medication to help and it really has. But then there are some days that it starts to come back and it just feels like something is pulling me to the ground from the inside of my stomach. I get this overwhelming feeling of sadness and feel like I am going to start crying, sometimes I do cry..and there is no reason for it. It's so frustrating to try and explain this to people, it's almost easier to keep it to myself but I know that's not healthy. The one problem I have is my spouse has been around me really sick off and on from irritable bowel syndrome and now down in the dumps regularly from my depression..(bad enough that she has to get me up in the mornings or I just won't get up) that all the sympathy she might of felt for me just isn't there anymore. It's more an attitude of THIS....AGAIN!!! Of course that makes me feel even worse. I keep pushing forward but I just don't know how to get over myself on days like this..today is definatly one of those days. I want to just crawl into bed and be left alone to cry and then sleep. I won't though, I will keep moving forward and I know eventually it will get better. I just really hate feeling like this.