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Some reasons I'm thankful that my soon to be Ex-wife is an amazing person.

1.  When I first told her I was TG, she called me later that day and told me that she "has never judged anyone, whether they are gay or Transgendered or whatever."  (Don't know what she meant by the "whatever", but I may also be covered if I develop some other rare medical condition!).

2.  When I first told her, she said she felt like a "victim" in our relationship.  After visiting my gender therapist with me this week, she said she thinks I'm a victim, for having to deal with this dysphoria all my life.

3.  She has promised to never cut me off from our kids, no matter what. She wants me to find a place here so I can be in our children's lives.

4.  She says she will be as supportive as she can as I move forward in my transition.

Honestly, I've been a good dad to my kids, and have loved my wife over these past 19 years as I've loved no other person.  I don't want to leave my family, as they have given joy to an otherwise joyless life, but she says she doesn't want to see more physical changes.  I know everyone here can relate to having "run out of rope" in stuffing the reality of who we really are away for so many years.  I simply will go insane if I can't continue on my journey.  So I must leave. 

As down and out as I feel about having to go, and making my children cry, I must remember to feel fortunate that my wife is the quality person she is.  I've heard stories of those in our situation who are shunned and locked out of their kids lives.

Heavy stuff for my first post, but if not here, where?  Thanks for reading it.  Erica  

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Comment by Rachel King on June 29, 2012 at 10:24pm

There's a lot of truth in your truth you have revealed here today, Erica.

It's a hard road we tread but let me tell you from my own experience, the reward at the end of the transitioning process, the rainbow, is extremely satisfying and fulfilling and though you will have many regrets, the one regret that you won't have, is regret that you went through with your transition.

Welcome to Pe, the trans friendly site that is without doubt the premier and most informative site available.

I don't call it the " University of Pe " for nothing.

It is a wonderful learniing site.

Enjoy.

Comment by Dal Maxwell on June 30, 2012 at 11:36am

But it does illuminate how close to the reality of the situation you are staying.  Many people in your position would have that starry-eyed everything will mork out fine kinda look and will be devestated when the reality hits the fan.  Good for you, your SO and hopefully your children.  I wish you the best on your journey and hope you continuue to keep both feet firmly planted on the ground.

Comment by Donna Meyer on June 30, 2012 at 2:31pm

If your wife is as understanding as you say. Please give her time to wrap her head around the situation she is in.   Gender identity is a huge and unexpected concept to try to understand. There are good books on the subject and suport groups out there.  My therapist is a great believer in taking it slow. I know there comes a point in our lives when we just have to move forward. If you realy value your family don't give up on your wife too soon.  Many spouses these days are staying with their TG husbands through transition even though it isn't easy.

  Any way best whishes for you as you go foward with transition. 

Love Donna

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