So the last week has been a little slice of hell...Mixed with a little slice of affirmation(leavened with some idiocy). Anyway, step 1 of getting hubby healthy has been accomplished. Full mouth extraction(Which his cardiologist insisted on prior to surgery to repair a congenital Atrio-Septal Defect). He tried to chicken out and I had to gently bully him into going.
The surgery itself went just fine, although he almost didn't survive check-in. Not from any medical issue aside from my intense desire to strangle him...
So the check in nurse takes his info, then looks over to me. "You're his wife?"
Hubby stammers for a second and replies "No He's my nephew...". Idiot. Through the rest of the experience he couldn't even decide if I was his son or nephew or just exactly what. Thankfully none of the staff at the Med U are stupid, so they totally got it.
Later when I asked him about it, he added insult to... well, insult I guess. "I didn't want to be embarrassed just because you're an It Freak! I don't want you messing up my medical care!" I then patiently(Although at about 150 decibels{I can project in a pretty serious way}) explained that he had, by doing that, given up the only legal protection we had, that if the hospital wasn't aware I was his partner they could deny me access to him and the ability to make decisions if needed. Hopefully he gets it.
The thing is, I can't even be mad at him for more than a few seconds. It'd be as pointless as trying to stay mad at a puppy for peeing on the floor. I know why he did what he did. Its reflex for him to hide. We have hidden for our entire marriage, always playing a role, usually he's my uncle... The thing is, that not only doesn't fly anymore, it is no longer needed and in fact counterproductive. He hasn't been out with me for quite a long while and just doesn't seem to realize that the world sees me as female now(Well at least he didn't realize it till then). I think he got it rubbed in his face as we were waiting for the cab home in the lobby, he wanted the bathroom and asked me to find it. I looked around, saw the ladies, but no men's. So I wandered around a second, looking. the guard at the desk broke into my somewhat bewildered search.
"Maam, Can I help you? What are you looking for?"
"I'm looking for the Men's room."
"Maam the restroom is right there." He points at the ladies.
"Yes but I'm looking for the men's room, its not for me!"
Anyway, it all got dealt with and he's now set for the heart surgery, the really frightening bit... I don't really want to think about that right now.
A bit of a humorous side note, just sort of a confidence builder for me...
I was grocery shopping in a new store, the bathrooms were in the same place but not, they were location-flipped. As a result, I went into the men's room. Just as I spot the urinals and am headed out, There's a knock on the door. I open it and a guy is standing there staring at his feet, clearly embarrassed.
"Maam this is the men's room..." He mumbles at the floor. Poor dear was turning dangerous shades of red...
So I look at the sign, squeak out an "Oh shit!" and duck into the ladies...
Anyway, that's what's up with my life, I guess. I call it good stuff!

Comment by Rachel King on April 11, 2012 at 6:30pm Strewth Abigail,
Your man needs a good spanking to bring him into the 21st Century but unfortunately his heart might not take it, at this time.
Save it up though.
Speaking of heart, you're all heart and a sight more tolerant than I could ever be.
If I have friends that transgress my golden rule of, speak to me as a woman, or don't speak to me at all, they get a non-gentle reminder that I don't denigrate them and I don't expect them to speak down to me.
Funny how the little things in life are so much to the forefront in our minds,
The niceties of being shown due respect as the women we are, mean the world to me.
Deep down, I've never asked for anything more.
Good luck to your bloke on his upcoming surgery, you might like to ask his surgeon to give him a gentle tap on the head, it might jolt his brain matter and wake him up to the fact he has a beautiful woman by his side.
Bloody men, stupid creatures they can be.
Comment by Lizabeth Kay on April 11, 2012 at 7:31pm A good "Oh shit!" can cover a lot of things, Abigail. I do hope and pray hubby's surgery goes well.
Liz
This reminds me of somethings I read; "Why are all the jokes about women one liners? So men can understand them!"
At the end of the day he's your puppy, though, and so in the long run you have something to celebrate. Keep those you love dear, even when they pee on the floor. I so loved how you communicated that wisdom that I just had to repeat it.
Comment by Marsha M. Marsha on April 12, 2012 at 4:56pm Hmn...seems everyone but hubby wants to acknowledge your gender.

Comment by Rachel King on April 13, 2012 at 9:17pm Forget the punchline Stefanie, I think you have been drinking too much Punch.
Why would a transwoman like Abigail be considered to be in a "gay" marriage?
Your diatribe on my recent blog is in total contradiction to your statement here but then, what you live and what you write is a total contradiction anyway.
I find your comment to Abigail very offensive.
You and her Husband would seemingly get along well.
When you create a persona, it becomes harder and harder to remember what was said in earlier times.
From the lie, is created a nightmare, it's why I always put so much emphasis on being honest on Pe.
We lived a lifetime of the lie, here on Pe, it is the perfect forum to begin letting the truth dominate our thinking and our lives.
It is highly recommended.

Comment by Rachel King on April 13, 2012 at 9:49pm Hi Angie,
I've always thought that to " say what you think and think what you say," is a pretty good way of learning from others when they either agree with your opinion or contradict you with an alternative opinion.
It's interesting that you say people on this site are pretty astute.
Why doesn't their astute mind allow them to make more comment than the small handful that do.
I've always wondered at that.
I'm a great believer in opening up the mind by discussion.
This is how we learn, but too few are open to a discourse on subjects that they must surely need to know more about.
Curious that.
And, being wrong is how we learn to get it right.
Neat balance that.
Comment by Janell Elynn Smith on April 15, 2012 at 10:21am OMG Abi! Your tale here confirms that women are the stronger sex. And when it comes to the doctor "Men" are such "little boys." You are such a strong woman with love, compassion, and common sense to have handled this incident with such fortitude.---Blessings, Elynn
Comment by Abigail Brower on April 19, 2012 at 12:01am OK, I totally did not mean to start a little flame war there...
To clarify: Saint Suelle, He is my mate, my husband of 23 years(Although not in any legal sense, we live in South Carolina after all...). Yeah he's got some issues with my transition, not the least of which is, as he puts it "Becoming a straight guy". I can't blame him for that, but he is sticking with me and that means more than all the rest.
I rather happen to like men. Don't understand em, but I do like em. You're free not to, maybe you've had bad experiences there, I dunno. Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater though, there are lots of absolutely wonderful guys out there, even if you aren't into em in that way.
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