I hate that I have to be *me* sometimes. I'm not like most of you, I just have to be Danielle sometimes, a split personality, a part time cross dresser. I wish I could do more but in my reality its not going to happen, ever.
Danielle 'grew up' this spring from a guilty, shameful, hateful abnormal thing into someone that I love dearly. I have no idea how far she'll take me - but I love her dearly. I have caught myself becoming her out in public when she should be locked away and I have been feeling more and more emotionally over run. I don't know how to deal with these issues yet.
I would love to have her spend more time learning, growing, becoming, well dammit - just let her take over. I feel so alone, that no one understands. I thank this site for being here -- it truly help keeps my sanity in check.
Sorry, just needed to get that off my chest.