I have been asking myself this question all night.....
I have been riding a transgender high lately. It started by getting a haircut and color followed by some dress shopping, it was a wonderful day, nobody seemed to care, I felt beautiful. I then went on vacation back to my hometown in Alberta, and I came out to everybody that was close to me who didn't already know. Including my sister, both parents and 2 of my oldest friends. I just got back to Montreal and find out that its pride weekend. So I decide I should be proud this weekend, and spend some time in girl-mode. My plans fell through tonight, so I thought I would try on some outfits for the weekend and practice my make-up, plus a good friend gave me a cute dress (which I wore as a shirt). There were a couple of things I thought I was missing so I thought I would slip to the drug store, before it closed. It was a bit late, but its open to midnight. Life is good.
Then someone has to kick you in the nuts. In my case a limo full of drunk party kids. I live in a trendy part of town, and there is always a lot going on. I was walking near a busy corner and someone in the limo "read" me, I don't think it is too difficult, but I try. He decided to point and yell "tranvesti", then summoned all his friends and continue to point and yell a few words in french. I gave a short stare, sped up a little, and took the first corner. No problem, right. A couple minutes later, I have to cross another busy street, and the limo gets stuck in traffic about 2 car lengths away. Now all four are shouting at me in french, but mostly the 2 girls. I tried flipping them off, but that seemed to increase the yelling. I thought it was worth a try.
I am still trying to find the moral of this story... I would like to think it has given me the opportunity to face one of the largest fears that keeps so many trans people in the closet, looked it straight in the eye, and walked away un-bothered. Maybe its a good thing I am not on hormones yet, it would be harder to hold back the tears. I'm strong! Fuck it!
peace and love,