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I have been asking myself this question all night.....

I have been riding a transgender high lately. It started by getting a haircut and color followed by some dress shopping, it was a wonderful day, nobody seemed to care, I felt beautiful. I then went on vacation back to my hometown in Alberta, and I came out to everybody that was close to me who didn't already know. Including my sister, both parents and 2 of my oldest friends. I just got back to Montreal and find out that its pride weekend. So I decide I should be proud this weekend, and spend some time in girl-mode. My plans fell through tonight, so I thought I would try on some outfits for the weekend and practice my make-up, plus a good friend gave me a cute dress (which I wore as a shirt). There were a couple of things I thought I was missing so I thought I would slip to the drug store, before it closed. It was a bit late, but its open to midnight. Life is good.

Then someone has to kick you in the nuts. In my case a limo full of drunk party kids. I live in a trendy part of town, and there is always a lot going on. I was walking near a busy corner and someone in the limo "read" me, I don't think it is too difficult, but I try. He decided to point and yell "tranvesti", then summoned all his friends and continue to point and yell a few words in french. I gave a short stare, sped up a little, and took the first corner. No problem, right. A couple minutes later, I have to cross another busy street, and the limo gets stuck in traffic about 2 car lengths away. Now all four are shouting at me in french, but mostly the 2 girls. I tried flipping them off, but that seemed to increase the yelling. I thought it was worth a try.

I am still trying to find the moral of this story... I would like to think it has given me the opportunity to face one of the largest fears that keeps so many trans people in the closet, looked it straight in the eye, and walked away un-bothered. Maybe its a good thing I am not on hormones yet, it would be harder to hold back the tears. I'm strong! Fuck it!

peace and love,
jenna!

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Comment by Roberta M on August 15, 2009 at 3:21am
I have had a similiar experiance's being read, if it goes sour,, flash a big smile and move on. I consider this a right of passage. Kinda like facing the demons and surviving. Its their loss for being narrow minded.
Ciao from Vancouver.
Comment by Jenn on August 16, 2009 at 5:28pm
Hi Jenna.

Teen girls are the most observant when it comes to checking out other women. But still I'll bet that it's not being 6' or having big feet that's getting you "read." I assume you were on foot and they were in their limo. At a distance they can't tell height or size with any precision unless they have a known reference. My (educated) guess is that they "read" body shape and physicality of movement. Women are shaped different and they walk different.

As you gain confidence as Jenna you may even be able to smile and wave at them and then walk over to them and engage them in conversation. This takes brash guts but it will disarm the situation and give you a chance to make new friends for the trans community.

Hugs, Jennifer
Comment by Jenna on August 17, 2009 at 12:20am
Thanks for the kind words of support. I live alone and needed to rant. It doesn't help I couldn't understand what they were saying, its hard to be confident in my second language no matter what I am wearing. I didn't let it get me down, I went out the entire next day and had a wonderful time and even my french skills are improving. I just wish those kinds of things didn't have to happen.
jenna
Comment by Jillian Munsell on August 27, 2009 at 7:11am
It does haunt you when it happens.. but as they say.. that that doesn't kill us.. makes us stronger.. You will be better prepared if this should ever happen again.. J.

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