Reaching out

Let's rewind to late winter, 2009. My soon to be ex wife and I were having a world fo problems. I was supressing so much about how I felt about my gender incongruency that it was having major impacts on my marriage. I also just wasn't happy in general. It was an unhealthy relationship when we first started dating and everything went down hill but I was too scared of abandonment to walk away.

That month, I disclosed to her that I felt I was transgender. We seperated. Throughout the next 3 to 4 months, she told me that if I decided not to begin transitioning, we could probably fight for our marriage. My fear of abandonment ultimately caused me to supress my true self. I actually supressed my real self for months. And slowly...ever so slowly...it had started to creep back into my life.

Obviously, I have been reaching out here for support...keeping up with people's progress and listening to the hurdles all of you go through to try and get my own life to a place where I am happy in my own skin. I have reached out to a few friends locally as well who have always been supportive.

Tonight, I reached out to the local transgender group. While the internet support is great and the friends who accept me as I am are great...I feel like I need to reach out also to those who I can speak with and see locally as I work through this. The group accept s cross dressers, transvestites, transgenders, etc....anyone who falls within the spectum of transsexual. I need to find that local support to help me on my own journey.

Just thougth I would share that little piece from my day. I hope all of you are having a wonderful weekend.