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Orchiectomy........ The kindest cut of all?

I have read a few words of late how a transgender woman is disturbed that their male capability is diminished by the taking of hormones.

I did a double take and nearly choked on what ever I was chewing on.

Using myself as an example, when I finally unravelled the answer to my dysphoria, I couldn't wait to make the body changes to align my body to my mind.

To in fact achieve this, I had an Orchiectomy within 9 months of beginning hormone treatment.


I was a woman, I've always known it, I just never understood the mechanics.

I never understood that it could happen for me.

When it did, it was the most uplifting experience I had ever known.

I was free.

Free of the male things that had kept me chained for 50 something years.

So here is the conundrum for me.

How does a supposed woman, who is supposedly trapped with the male trappings, have this desire for male sex.

It makes me wonder if they are transgender at all.

There doesn't appear to be any correlation between being transgender and having male urges.

Not to me anyway.

I do understand the urges that are there early in transition, they never went away for me until my Orchiectomy.

To me, this surgery was a blessing.

Ok, it's just occurred to me, that not everyone is transitioning, so fair enough, but why would you want to be a girl, then to be a boy who wants a girl, or a boy.

You see the conundrum?

I never did get fetishes, they were never me.

To me being transgender is being a woman inside, regardless of your personal circumstances of how you have to live, not being a man dressed as a woman, with male desires. I mean yuk.


And that is why I have a belief that an Orchiectomy is the kindest cut of all. It is a release from a male bondage,, one we never wanted and one that to be rid of is an incredible relief.

I had the good fortune of a woman Doctor who had an empathy with me and got me through our system gratis. I think she put me down as needing surgery on medical grounds not as elective surgery, so I was covered on our medicare system.

For a good empathetic Doctor the system can also work for you, wherever you are. Had it not, I was more than happy to go to Thailand and pay $3500 for something I felt I absolutely needed for my sanity, if nothing else.

Oh, and many Doctors warn about shrinkage and not having enough of or not being able to have the right shape for genital surgery later on if you have an Orchi way before GRS..

This never happened for me. I had no shrinkage at all, and according to my wife, the result is.... well never you mind.

She is happy, trust me. 

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Comment by Rachel King on December 29, 2010 at 8:40am

I am curious if the religionists would despise us more as a surgically altered bodied woman or as a non-surgically altered bodied woman.

Considering they never did any surgery in those days, I wonder how there can be an opinion on it.


Autogynephilia, it rhymes with paedophilia doesn't it.

I'm sorry, I cannot see a transgender woman as a fetishist, few women are though, are they,


Comment by Kristi L on December 29, 2010 at 11:49am
Thank you so much for this blog Rachel. I have often thought of this and discussed this with other. I never understood how one would truly have GID and still feel like you mention here.
Comment by Marsha M. Marsha on December 29, 2010 at 1:39pm

My sweetheart and I are compatible in many ways and one which I am so happy we agree upon is our DADT policy toward our donor material:  Don't Approach, Don't Touch. Now the blasted appendage awakens occassionally for both of us and I chock it up to the female inner cravings being processed through the errantly formed body part but I must say two things have become achingly hurtful since going fulltime: 1. The need to set right the wrong for my own sanity 2. The need to set right the wrong for my sweetheart, because the frustration level of wanting to melt myself into her and not being able to fully complete the process is very grievious.

 From my vantage point I just don't perceive arriving at this juncture to stay in the halfway house, however, I know of some who get their orchiectomy and live happily ever after, so I suppose it takes all kinds. My need to get GCS is based on the innate craving to feel complete, I can't even explain fully why, but I know I was meant to have a vagina and something went amiss which I intend to have corrected by this time next year.

Comment by Sophia Smith on December 29, 2010 at 3:00pm


Maybe "their male capability" is all they know? They could equate sex as intercourse, alone. Perhaps they are sexually ignorant? There is a world of ways to achieve an end, it does not require a stiffy (though it helps if someone does, just not me) :)

Comment by Rachel King on December 29, 2010 at 7:00pm

Sometimes you feel like a ' jerk', but that doesn't mean you are 'off. '


Comment by Rachel King on December 29, 2010 at 7:46pm

Hi LeAnn,

MC & a HNYtoyouboth.

I never took spiro. With high this and high that, it wasn't advised. When my Doctor understood my determination, she had no hesitation in offering an Orchie as the ideal next move.

Your Rachel will find an incredible release after this surgery, and the change in her disposition, the release from one of our great frustrations, will bring a tear of joy to both your eyes.

Oh yes, indeedy.

Comment by mia sue on December 29, 2010 at 7:51pm
I got my orchiectomy three weeks ago today i am still on a high from the lose of my male
Comment by Rachel King on December 29, 2010 at 7:59pm
Well done Mia,
My male surgeon didn't agree with this as elective surgery.
I am sure he stretched them out, steadied the knife, snip and piiiing, like a rubber band.
OOOhhhh, ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.( I can see your grimace from Oz, hahaha )
I didn't bruise black and blue, just straight black,hahahaha.
But, you couldn't wipe the smile off my face.
Comment by Monica Lorraine Beaudry on December 29, 2010 at 8:35pm

I also don't see this as"trannier than thou" post. I am sort of sensitive to that type of thing and I am very intrigued by this glimpse in what may or may not be in my future. This is information that you won't likely get anywhere and I am very grateful that Rachel shared it with all of us.



Comment by Nicole Aime on December 29, 2010 at 10:33pm

Everyone's reality is different and valid. For those of us who are trying with all our might to preserve the relationships we have with the wives we convinced to marry us, perhaps, just perhaps, we may occasionally lament not being able to fulfill her desires, not our own.

Having stated my opinion, some will interpret what I said to be judgmental. But it is not. Sometimes there is no way to express something without talking about an opposite. Rachel's example of what she can't understand should be considered just that - a clarification of what she really feels.

Hugs all around


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