Not a good weekend – Full of mixed feelings, a dear friend gone to GOD and legal separation threat.

A FRIEND LOST

I thought yesterday, my evening was made. I had ventured out
total woman yesterday, the groceries and vanity stock up for the next month
prime on my mind, no glances were cast, even on my 1^st visit to the neighboring
 pharmacy, the regular female pharmacist had
4ever seen me in male mode, but I felt elated on being addressed as maa’m.

A text message on my cell said, and I quote “I will be no
more 2morrow” was caught by surprise.

I knew her for 17 yrs since 1995, she was 37.

Ist encounter on vacation, at a French restaurant, a waiter
with cropped hair very effeminate and being heckled by colleagues on the job. The
answer to my question of her name was Sweety. My suspicion came right.

Encounter 2 was in 1997, lass seated next to me in a municipal
transport bus. The conversation was as follows u met me b4, on asking where she
recalled the French outlet, was very surprised, she was all female.

1997 to 2000 were the years, I had repatriated back to my
origin, and 6 months being in male mode was incurring depressions on me. My
reflexes made me ask her address, as it may help me acquire my female wardrobe
and venture out in my own city and it did work.

We had no, physical relationship, barring 1 evening in
intoxication she insisted on us joining our bodies.

A Diploma in Business Management she had completed, she told
me the next morning, so she was well educated, was a runaway from her province,
as even her mom cursed her.

A well read person she was , on SRS and total transition.  

An insight in her activities dawned on me after queries, she
confided the eunuchs (notorious) are forcing her to follow their religion; it
meant begging and then total eradication of meat, between the legs.

I had weaned her away from the same by implying her
education and her knowledge of  SRS and
hormone intake, by texts and calls, since I immigrated back in late 1999.  

I spent half of my yearly vacations as a girl with her, over
the years. In 2008 she texted me, she is now complete. The eunuchs had trappedher into the surgical removal.

On my last short visit , we spent 2 nights talking and she
had X’pressed dissatisfaction of the outcome, a horrid view for my eyes,

we cried over the same, and she kept saying it will not be for long. I could not gather her intention.

It was confirmed by a friend today morning, YES SHE IS NO MORE.

A FINAL CURTAIN IT
SEEM’S

My profile defines my relationship status as, kids are grown. The issues with my spouse have been there over the years not of my orientation, but ogling at other women, I am certain all of us likeminded know our reasons for ogling.

As usual, we are misconstrued, as we tend to be in a closet.
I am thought of by her as a flirt. We have no physical contact since 2007,whew, good relief, from being taunted, me having a feminine structure, it has helped to be me.

A call yesterday, she said u decide, I want a legal separation;
my family is good enough to support me and the kids. I am certain and decided she will have to initiate proceedings, until me will remain passive to her threat.

I do will support my kids and take care of their being Nargees

I take the above with relief. It will help me cross the bridge & reveal my true self, once we both are done with the legalities.

Nargees