New to PE

Hello everyone,

My name is Elizabeth and never have done a blog before, but there is a first time for everything!  I am excited about finding and joining this site.  Ideally hope to find new friends, don’t really know anybody in the trans-community here in Kansas City.  You’d think living in a big city like KC it would be different.  I am pretty shy at first, but once you get to know me I am hard to keep quiet.   I have lived in the Midwest my whole life.  It wasn’t until 99 or 2000 before I even heard about a transsexual or anybody changing gender for that matter, of course it happened after I was married too.  I knew from a very early age that there was something different about me.  As I got older it got quite difficult to hide my true self and when I did try to express myself it was saw as completely wrong.  They only time during my childhood that I could be “myself” was during summer camp and it only lasted a week, there was about 7 of us girls that were in separable.  One summer it became very transparent to me of how different I really was.  There was a chant that we had come up with and we had done year, it had actions with it too.  I can’t remember the whole chant anymore, just bits and pieces.  I had just finished 7^th grade, part of the chant we would turn our hips to the side and put our on one hip and say “I must say”.  This is when it hit me that what I was doing was very feminine style and that moment was when I really realized that I was a girl.  Everything I had done up to that point was considered “girly” to society standards anyway.  There were a few times what I would call “Defining Moments” in my adolescent years.  When my mother found dresses and other clothing hidden in my room was certainly a vivid memory.  That is when we had the talk, of how what I had been doing is completely wrong and un-acceptable.  She persisted through the years until after high school that I would meet somebody and start a family.  So of course I followed suit, wanted her to be proud of me.  I think every kid wants nothing more than to have their parents proud of them.  My only regret is I wish I would have started to transition earlier in life, but don’t dwell on it.  Hope to get on hormones very soon; I believe I found a very good therapist too.     

Well I have probably rambled off long enough now, hope I didn’t bore you too much :)

Hugs,

Liz