I am new to this website. In short, after 30+ years of living in hell, I finally find out two weeks ago, that I am an MTF transsexual. Anyway, I finally spoke to my therapist after my work and family had been affected by me. She was a very kind and understanding person and I was able to get out my deep secret, I felt like there was a mistake in giving me this body. I know that I am supposed to be a woman, but I've never told anyone about it. It took every ounce of strength for me to tell even my therapist (I know, sounds ridiculous), but I finally did. The best thing was that she was going to try to get this secret out of me slowly, but I told her before anything else. I wanted to open my own door with my own strength. While my heart was beating incredibly hard, it felt so right to get it out of my system.
Now I am trying to learn how to cope with myself and deal with my newly found confidence in myself. This has been a freight train of feelings. I must be honest, I still don't know much about having gender dysphoria, but I am still learning.
The interesting part about all this is that I have five wonderful children and a great wife.
I am excited to be able to know what is wrong/right about me and that there is a way to enjoy life to its fullest.
All I ask is that you please be patient with me, but if you have any sugestions or comments, please feel free to let me know as I am always looking for help to better my life and ease my challenge.