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I am new to this site but of course not to being trans.  How to begin... I have only recently started to accept the fact that I am transgender after battling with gender issues my entire life.  Within the past two months I have come out to my mother and My sister.  My wife of course has known for quite some time.  Honestly I was afraid to come on here and post my actual picture and not be some psuedo character that I created.  The time for honesty has come for me and I don't know what that is going to cost me yet.  I am married with two boys and I love them and my wife more than anything.  It is hard to tell your secrets but for my own peace of mind and purposes I need to tell them.  I am built like a football lineman and I want to be female or think I am?  I have always said god has a sense of humor.  I do what I can and really I am so tired of hiding who I am and being depressed.  My hope is that I can learn from those here and help to establish what my path is on this journey.  Hopefully those who read my posts can learn something also.  We are all human beings who share a common experience.  The trap that I want to avoid is letting my transgender issues define who I am.  I am WAY more than just a trans-person.  I am  a husband, a dad, a son, a brother, an uncle, a friend who happens to come under the umbrella of what our professional establishment has labeled "transgendered".  No matter how feminine I choose to become I can never know what it is to be an actual natural born female.  I can emulate, copy, try my best to be but I will always be labeled trans even if I believe with all my heart that I am truly a woman.  I can never divorce myself from being male or try so very hard to forget that experience...it is a part of me.  My goal is to move forward, to educate myself and to above all grow into the person I was meant to be. 

That being said Hi, I'm new here.    Kevin

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Comment by Bethany Davis on August 29, 2012 at 12:25pm
Hey Kevin , welcome to the community ,wishing you success with the learning/education process. Have a wonderful day!
Comment by Caroline Grace on August 29, 2012 at 12:32pm

Welcome...

Very nice blog. It was full of honesty.  And since I know that linebacker story from my own experience, I have some idea what you may be going through.

What is possible is far more than you might imagine. What others accept can also be far more than you imagine. Still, you run risks by dealing with being TG.  If you have already told your family, That is a huge part. It was the hardest part for me.

To help you understand what is possible I would like to share that I have before pictures on my page. On YouTube I have videos of me as a guy 6' 2" 290 pounds. I have videos of me now.  And even though probably 90% of the people here have done a better job at physically transitioning, I still get by rather well these days.  3 years ago I was a lot like you, so what you are going through right now isn't a distant memory for me.  I have written over 300 blogs on my experiences, so please feel free to read them.

And there are a bunch of really incredible gals here who will support you, understand you, and who have been through things similar, too.  As much as we'd like to think we are the only ones in this world like us, actually it is far more common than one might expect.

So welcome and enjoy meeting a bunch of new friends, Caroline

Comment by Erin Detty on August 29, 2012 at 4:39pm

Hi Kevin, Welcome you've come to the right place.

Comment by Darla Rose Klein on August 29, 2012 at 5:15pm

Welcome Kevin very well said,i wish you hte best on your journey.

Comment by Joanna on August 29, 2012 at 5:44pm
Wwelcome Kevin. Most of us have been exactly where you are right now. Male, married and hopelessly confused about your place in the gender spectrum. Not fitting well in either camp. Seems to be a lifelong journey...
Comment by Annette Angela Taylor on August 30, 2012 at 12:46am
Hi Kevin. Like you I am married with children also. So I can definitely identify with your situation. Its hard to know how to procced from here. I think you have definitely come to the right place for support. This is by far the best site on the web for people like us. Welcome
Comment by Allison Elizabeth on August 30, 2012 at 9:34am

Hello Kevin, I am in exactly the same place you are. Confused, frustrated, and trying to find some answers. I wish I had some for you. I know from personal experience that it's tough being on "The Brute Squad" when you really want to be The Princess Bride. I don't have any great wisdom to pass along or any profound answers, but i can offer my friendship, my ears to listen, and a shoulder to cry on when needed. If there is ever anything I can do to help, let me know.

Comment by Chelle Munroe on August 31, 2012 at 2:58pm

Welcome to the group. I'm fairly new myself and it is great to have such a fantastic connection.

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