My name is Ashley Marie Rea. I am 39 for 30 more days as of this post. I started my transition in October of 2011. I was being very careful when I was sorting out my feeling. I am a daughter of a Transwoman. My father began her transitioned in 1991, my senior year. This is when I knew what a Transsexual is and that I had a word to what I was feeling. Most of my siblings (1 sister and 2 brothers) thought that I was mad at my father, but I was jealous of her. I decided to my secret hidden. I had other opportunity to come out when I was 21. I started to crossdress. I chickened out when my father's boyfriend outed me. I denied it and buried it even deeper into my subconscious.
I keep it that way for 15 years. In the meantime I got married in 2000. This is the biggest mistake I have made so far. I was getting ready to leave the marriage because I was have very strong feelings that I was having trouble hiding. That all changed when she told me that she was pregnant. This made me buried my feeling again. I was going to be a father. My son was born on Christmas eve 2006. I am very proud of my son. I tried to be a good father and husband. It was going great until April 2010. My grandfather passed away. This was devastating. He was my father figure. I was very close to him. He is the only one that I told my secret to when I was younger. I miss him so much. This event brought all of the buried feeling back to the surface.
I was spending so much time trying to hide my feelings, that I ignored everyone in my life (My step-son, my wife, and my son) My wife left me at the end of June 2011. I had no more excuses.
Shortly after my last birthday I started crossdressing when I was not at work. I continued to see a therapist about how I was feeling. In an appointment with him in December, he told me to just be gay. This hurt a lot. I never saw him again. I went to Texas (my home state) for my nieces 16th birthday party. I did not hide myself from the family. They did not ask me anything. When I returned I found a gender therapist and started the process of transition.
I went full time at the end of April and started HRT on May 1. I have already decide to have surgery. With exception of the custody battle the transition has been smooth. No issues at work or any where else. I hope to have the surgery in 2014 but 2015 at the latest.
More to come later