My journey

Hello. My name is Misty and this is my Journey. For as far back as I can remember I have always felt deep down inside I was ment to be female. Growing up I didn't know what a  Cross Dresser was or a gay person  or a transsexual was or even a transvestite. I thought when I dressed up in womens clothing or played a female role with friends all that was normal. I had a pretty good child hood growing up until I enterd my teenage Yrs. I came out to my parents as a gay male when I was 14 yrs of age and thought the answer to my problems have been solved. I felt like a big weight had been lifted of my shoulders but, something was still nagging at me. I still felt I was ment to be a woman. Was feeling like I was ment to be a woman the reason why I acted out like I did why I was so rebellious. I was depressed alone felt like I couldn't tell anybody I wanted so bad to be a female. I did tell a few friends I was gay and liked men and in the end lost those friends. I became openly gay at 19 the day I graduated highschool. To me that was the best feeling ever but in the back of my mind I wish I would of told my parents I wanted to be a female that as far back as I can remember I felt I should of been a female and couldn't understand why I was born a boy and not a girl. I was one to hide how I felt witch made me very moody and dificult to get along with. I came out as a Trans woman the Yr before I got on hormones. I started hormones at the age of 24 and I am 35 Yrs of age now. I lost a lot of friends after I came out as a Trans woman my so called friends tired to tell me I wasn't a trans woman and I would be making a big huge mistake my parents had a hard time deeling with it and still have a hard time deeling with it. My relatives don't accept me as a trans woman. They can accept me as a gay man but not a trans woman. When I am round family I have to dress in drab witch suck. I still look like a woman with or without makeup on. I am as out and open as one can get. I don't hide the facted I like men or that I am a Trans woman. I am just me and if that bothers people then don't take the time or the effort to get to now me as a human and a person. If my being out and open makes you question your own sexuality that is your own problem you have to deal with. One doesn't have to hate on me or make fun of me cause of that. I feel I shouldn't have to hide anymore or be afraid to be my true self.