My first blog ahh shake shiver, tap tap, is the mic working?

High everybody. I am Nathine Davia-Tereana Goldenthal, legal name, legal F, and like everybody I fit the transgender spectrum.

I am a chimera 80:20, 80% XX, 20% a miserable XY. Born and raised as female for the first 5 years, changed over to a male, by a parent that was not all there, and had their own motives, and finally had enough of playing the Victor-Victoria-Victor and am returning to my true gender. The 20% was made to dominate, so I appear as a "slight" male although it didn't seem to fool anybody. I was bullied in school, got on better with the girls, than boys, beaten by the chauvinists etc. Not a happy childhood. I am a retired physician, with multiple board certifications, always chasing the end of the rainbow, because regardless of what I had, it was never enough to be accepted. 

The 80% still had me developing normal female breasts, and I lactated, not atypical during development, had periods although I have no idea where the source of progesterone is. My estrogen levels always ran high. Didn't develop facial hair until mid 20's, then the damn stuff wouldn't go away and a 10 AM shadow was a problem. 

One last effort to try to raise the testosterone level to cis male, which almost killed me. Estrogens starting running over 5000 ng / ml and that was it. I didn't know, but suspected I had the AR gene on the 20%. 

How is this for a synopsis?

Anyways I refuse to live the lie any longer, so I am FT, coming up 2 years now Dec, had the trach shaved, and surprised the surgeon, (not me) with a Normal female crico-thyroid cartilage, but had a calcific "growth" on the surface that was the cause for enlargement. I was an asymmetrical fully developed B, so I had them made a symmetrical C, again the surgeon noting to his relief, that I had normal female glandular breasts which made the surgery a breeze. 

I am waiting for SRS, supposedly next month, but at zero hour, they suddenly inform me that I need a second therapist's letter, so now I am scrambling trying to comply. Needless to say I am livid, but we will see how this goes. The surgeon, not to mention myself, is curious as to what is inside the pelvis.

I provide lectures to our local TG groups here in Arizona, and trying to make friends. One of the personality traits that most of us share, is that we are noted as loners, not by choice but out of need of self preservation. 

I am always happy to talk about myself if you have any questions, and would be delighted to talk to all of you, only not all at once.

Just of note,  I was taught in detail about the "spectrum" in my specialty. 

So again hello everyone.

Nathine :)