Sorry I am posting so late, just never seem to be able to sit for a while. So EJ and I went out last week, we spent most of the evening getting ready to go...lots of shaving and make-up and doing hair. We picked out outfits, I made her try on at least four or five outfits! She was still extremly nervous and didn't feel comfortable going in anywhere so we went through the drive thru at TacoBell then we went by RedBox and she got out of the car with me to pick a movie. While we were there a couple people showed up and waited behind us, one man in particular stood very close! She was getting really nervous, I could tell but she did great and played it cool. When we got into the car on the drive home she says..I'm a chicken, I know! I told her no you have to go at your pace and besides if I was dressed as a man it would make me nervous thinking everyone was judging me. That seemed to help a little. I know it sounds stupid but even just a driving in the car I think helps her with her self confidence. I told her don't think of yourself as a man dressing up as a women, think of yourself as you are..a women! I know thats much easier said then done though so that is why I am trying to not be to hard on her. Sometimes, I feel like I am pushing her..it's just because I know how unhappy she is right now. Believe me I'm not as selfless as I might sound..I would prefer her to want to be what she looks like to me..the man that I married but I have learned to accept that fact that simply isn't who she is and no matter how she acts on the outside, until she is able to be who she is on the inside full time she is always going to be unhappy. She did mention wanting to do another girls night the other day so I think its only a matter of time before she is completly comfortable going out dressed up! Wish us luck!