It has been a very difficult time for my family and I and your support and well wishes are appreciated. I have updated my name and status to reflect how things are now because it is a fact that my life is changing and I have to change with it. We all have our own road to walk and truthfully that is all anyone can do is walk it. I didn't remember that the name I was thinking of going by was one my former spouse and I had picked as a middle name for a child if we had had a daughter. It was offensive to her and I respect her opinion in spite of what anyone else thinks. I changed it to what I believe will be my actual female name when I get it changed legally. I need to think of myself as the girl that has been locked away inside of me and not my male persona. She is afraid and very shy but she has to have her chance at life. She has so many years of catching up with the world that it seems an impossible task.. She needs her time and love for being neglected by me and she is me. I need your help. I need your love patience and support. I was to be born on February 29th 1968 but my mother crossed her legs and wouldn't let me out (true story) because she didn't want me to be born on that date as it only occurs once every four years. I am only eleven years old and my behaviour probably shows that. Please be patient with me as I have a lifetime of growing up to do in a very short period of time. I am going to make lots of mistakes and do stupid things please don't stop loving me. I am scared of plenty of things right now and it is going to show in my writing. Don't judge me too harshly or punish me without consideration that I am just a little girl. I want to live my life and be free to become who I was meant to be, please give me that chance so I can show you all of the wonderful things that are inside of me. I want to grow into a woman who can set an example for those who follow after me. Please let me be myself and allow me to heal. Forgive me if I offend you I'm only human and Iook a lot older than I really am. Teach me how to be beautiful and watch me blossom into a woman of beauty and integrity. Show me mercy so that I in turn can be merciful to others. Teach me to be giving without thought of cost to myself because that is how women love and I want to be that kind of woman. Finally thank you for giving me this chance. I will do my best to show you that I love you as well. Karen
Comment by Erin Detty on September 17, 2012 at 7:52am We all went through this to some degree, you always have the chance, the right to be Karen, here or anywhere else you might find yourself.
Your mom has always looked out for you and I sure she always will, your Ex, respect will go a long way for the sake of your kids and yourself.
Relax and just be yourself there is no trick to being the woman that you are meant to be:)
Comment by Allison Elizabeth on September 17, 2012 at 8:47am Hi Karen, (BTW I like it!) I am in the same boat with you. I'm a little girl of about 11 or 12 myself even though no one would believe that if they saw me on the street. i may not be able to teach you much but I can be a BFF for you! Wanna make a Pink Swear on it?
Comment by Jamie Robin Gardner on September 18, 2012 at 12:03am Hi Karen,
I understand how scary and confusing life can be. Don't worry as time goes by it does get better. I transitioned in 2007 in the state of Virginia. It was difficult and scary for me too. Time past since then. I went on hormones. Took voice therapy from kathi Perez at Exceptional Voice. learned to tone down my makeup and look so that I passed. Had SRS. Today I am a woman. I pass almost everywhere I go dispite being 6'5" tall. I am engaged and will be married on Dec 1st to a CIS lesbian woman the Rev Jan Matter in Maine. As Me does not yet allow same sex marriage our committment will not be legal. Yet an Episcopal Priest and an earth centered priestess are going to marry us before God and the Goddess.
In time your life will become more comfortable and you will learn to accept yourself. That is the first step in becoming accepted. Learn to accept and love yourself. As you do that inner strength and normalicy will project outward from you and you will find people accept you for female.
it's funny in a way. I used to spend so much time getting ready to go out make up hair just so. Now I don't bother with make up except for special occasions and dress real casually in jeand and cotton blouses, wear my hair down and just let it do it's thing and suprisingly pass all the time because I beleive and project that I am female.
BLESSED BE DEAR.
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