SO, I've come to the conclusion that while I present as mostly femenine,
I am a mix of both male and female. My gender is a mix of both. Some days I feel more male than female, somedays I feel more female than male.
For me, this is quite alright, though I prefer to present in the female bodied aspect, (up to and including surgery). I think this is something I need to do for my own peace of mind. As of late, I've been told that I simply cannot be a genderqueer transexual, as you can only be one or the other.
My question to these people is why?
Why can't I feel this way?
Why are you invalidating me as a person and marginalizing me when you've fought hard against the very same?
Why do you get the right to tell me who I am?
I am me for me and no one else. I live my life as I see fit and as it makes me happy. I may be confusing to some, and people may not understand me, but I am simply just me when it boils down to it.
Gender. It's a fickle thing