This post isn't discuss my reasons for Choosing Dr. McGinn to perform my vaginoplasty, or to discuss any of the terrible experiences with her office, and many terrible experiences with the staff at the hospital, I may post about that later. This is solely to go over my post op results.
My recovery immediately following surgery went very well, I had no major infections in the hospital, I bleed very minimally. I peed within hours of having my catheter removed, the majority of the pain I felt was from being stuck for days in bed. And compared to some people post aesthetic vaginal looks mine looked very good. I had great sensation during my first dilation in her office. Everything went really well until about the end of February, I should say at this point that my surgery was on January 23rd. The end of February the left side of my clitoris began to fuse to the surrounding hood. Slowly this nasty fibrosis painful tissue began to develop around my the still exposed sides. About mid March dilation becoming painful, I was doing her recommended five times a day. It slowly became extremely painful I'd have to drink to get through the pain as medications did nothing for it.
Over the following months the pain became more and more intense. It got to point in June where i had to cut down on my dilation, because I couldn't stand drinking anymore and even it wasn't helping with the pain much anymore. I should also add that my clitoris is also painful to touch as well as the area around it, and actually the whole area. Becoming aroused these days hurts to badly, I near cry out in pain.
Then the worst part of all, happened three weeks ago now, I had some free time so I decided to try out a vibrator, I started with the dilators, but I noticed that being aroused caused the area around the opening to my vagina to raise up almost like an erection and the entire area was raised up, including my labia, the opening to my vagina was very difficult to locate, or even get into with even my smallest dilator. The pain at that point was intense I still went through with trying it out, as I've been sexually frustrated for months and I wanted to relieve that badly. Though I was gentle and went slowly and used lots of mineral oil, it was painful, and I bleed a bit, "bit" is an understatement
I made an appointment with a local doctor who has been following me post of that afternoon, I also contacted McGinn's office. Of course the local doctor had no idea what was going on, and McGinn wanted to say I was having phantom pains, or that my hormones were off.
My local dr got me into see Marci Bowers, just this past Monday, she was up here for Gender Odyssey, immediately looking at my vagina she pointed out the fibrosis tissue, and said she had no idea what it was but that she could fix it. She did say I had too much erectile tissue, that my clitoris was too high, and that I had some extra skin around my labia. She wanted to schedule me for a labiaplasty to help with my pain.
At this point it's hard to want to go through with another surgery, especially considering that something can go wrong again, I could lose sensation altogether. And I could live the rest of my life stuck in this place where I feel aroused at normal times, but it just adds to this never ending feeling of unrelieved sexual frustration, it's been hell. I never realized before how big of a part of life, sex was until this happened, and the pain is nothing compared to missing out on that. At this point I couldn't even imagine being sexual with someone the pain is way too great, I can't even touch myself, Bowers even had to give up on my exam.
And a little tack on note for the end of this post. It's recently come to my attention that surgeons to improve their technique, try out new things. I know someone who told by bowers who had her surgery done by her that she would even do some things differently now. Now it's just something to keep in mind with having surgery, that your surgeon my try something different out, and it may not be for the better.