Just growing old or growing wiser?
This aging thing is one of those that are better left to humor... but getting older is one of the two unavoidable absolutes in life. But who as heck wants to get older? Believe it or not, I was! since my teens all the way to my late 30's. And it wasn’t because I wanted to be wiser. I just never represented my true age. Same I don’t represent - not even today, but it’s getting closer and closer as I go. What about wiser? Mmmm... a little? Lol Although some people that don’t know me personally had told me via e-mail: "You’re old and uptight". Yup! I’ve received several notes saying stuff like that, among several others hate notes. The most recent one said " You’re not a woman, you will never be one, nor will look like one" <Flickr>. That was an anonymous sender that blocked me after sending the message. Did I care? Keep reading.
Back in track: I’ll turn 59 yo this summer and people still believe me to be in my 40's in person and 30s in my pictures. Most cry in my face: great genes! I will not deny that, but as well I strongly believe, my genes, had been heavily aided by a good attitude in life. What does that have to do with looking young ? My answer: direct your attention to the amount of energy people spare when angry, frustrated, worried, stressed, etc, or when we don’t take good care of our body, our vessel. Energy doesn’t get renewed much.
Mmmm... I don’t drink but socially, physically I’m very active, I exercise my mind and heart as much as my body. I love food soooo bad, but mostly I eat well. I spend one day a week w/o talking at all <process time>. No phone or people. I fast twice a year and spent a few days a year in total solitude and w/o TV music, books, games. etc. Usually I look at the bright side of things, always realistically. I tend to relax enough to charge my batteries when tired. Drink tons of water and consume several antioxidants. I do unwinding when I am over stressed. I fuel myself with lots of positive passion for life, for some others and all what I believe in. I am eternally curious about everything. I attempt to try everything at least 3 times before making a judgement. And I use lots of moderation about everything. But I am smoker! Smoking wrinkles the face real bad. As you can see, I am "almost" a saint. A western monk perhaps? No wonder people may think that I maybe uptight! Lol
The truth is: My life is far from perfect but mostly feels to be a large improvement over my past. So, what I’ve done works. Ahh! But I’ve made zillions of mistakes, I’ve been hurt and at times harm. I’ve suffered but I get alone with my own self.
Well, people tell me I am a lucky one. Am I? Well, up to some degree. But it is not my fault. Some even believe I am a privileged girl.
Look at life and everyone "lucky" just for a second: what they didn’t get in life and needed to work for, maybe I got it, even for free, but there is something that they got and I didn’t and I had to work really hard for it! really hard. Everyone else too! Nevertheless, you’re getting older, so am I. Now lets throw the coin and lets see who is wiser. Ooops, it doesn’t work like that - right? Shall we go into a pissing context then? Whooops! That is not wise nor delivers. So what’s next?
Question: Why am I writing this and why are you reading it? Well, it suppose to do something with being older or wiser. Do you happen to care about it as much as I do? Yeah right! don’t care! It reminds me of that card where an older man ask in the front of the card: "Do you know what has been done about that insidious apathy in the world?". Open the card and it reads: "I don’t know and I don’t care!". That’s a wise man for you. In another card, the old man got a huge stamp and he stamped his entire room with it. The stamp reads: "F*ck it". There you have another wise man. And that’s a heck of an attitude, isn’t it? And both are not uptight, right? Soooo, does old-er equals wise-r?
Thanks for letting me to entertain you. Wisely!