Last night was not only a great evening for Helen, it was a real treat for me as well. About ten o'clock, my phone came on showing I had a message. It was from my sister, which surprised me as we haven't spoken for some time since my family became aware of my transitioning.
She inquired on how I was doing and how the hormones were working and was I experiencing any difficulties.
After telling her I was okay and feeling great, she asked how I was being treated because she was worried about my safety. Again, I told her things have been great and decided to send her a picture. I sent one and said, this was at my friend Linda's. My sister wrote back -- "Is this your friend?" I sent back, it was me.
Her response was, "OMG, I didn't even recognize you!" Then she said, "You look happy."
Without boring everyone with the entire conversation, I felt so happy at that moment because it was a beginning. I have respected my family by not pushing things in their faces and have resigned myself to the fact that they may never accept me, so last night's conversation with my sister was a bright moment in my life.
I know that one conversation is not a guarantee things will make a turn for the better and complete acceptance but it is a beginning. I also know that my sister sees things from a different point of view than my brothers -- wherein lies the reality that my entire family might not be so supportive.
When I have visited family, it has been as their brother so they have not seen me as me. I do know for fact that if I showed up on their doorstep as my true self, the door would not even be opened to me, so I've placated the situation by not pushing the envelope. However, the time is coming when I won't be able to do that anymore. I am "me", and I am -- "who" and "what" I am --- I'm a woman and I'm Chelle and if they decide to sever the relationship with me, then it will be their doing, not mine. I can live with that. Especially as I make new friends and develop relationships that are like an extended family.
"IT"S A BEGINNING!"