i m really losing it , i had to put this side of me away for a while ,just to focus on life ,and because my wife told me awhile ago that she was crying her self to sleep , but she seems fine lately , she thinks the man in her life is here . BUT ,well it worked out a while that i had to go into town and get a speaker repaired which was just up the street from a wig place i was dying to go to one day, So i went into the store, i told the man i like the wig with bangs in the window,and the hair colour was close to mine , i felt stupid trying it on in front of him , he gave me privacy. So i did not buy it right away ,i went home for two days and all i could do was think about it. So the friday i picked it up , when i finally got a chance to really wear it , thats when the trouble started , i put it on and looked in the mirror , and i said aw crap . This is who i really am , i loved who was in the reflection staring back at me , it is such a beautiful wig it is the hair i have always wanted , i had cut my hair short again just before finding this wig . when my hair was long i could never make it look like this does, my hair long looked bad . But right now i am writing this because i am hurting inside ,i don't know what to do , i looking all the time to find a friend to share this side with, someone close by, but the truth is i m really going crazy inside .OMG this build up is awful , it is depressing me horribly .