I am posting this merely because I promised I would check & clarify if needed. I still haven't decided if I'm staying or not. But I will attempt to respond to those who cared to reply to my original post. I would like to thank all of you who responded with care, concern, and compassion. However, there were also a few who basically said "Get Over It". While I understand & appreciate the sentiment you are trying to convey, in the future, with others, please be very careful with that. The tough love, drill sergeant approach can actually REINFORCE those feelings of worthlessness and despair in a person. Remember, what works on you does not necessarily work on someone else.
To explain another point... Jillian, I would LOVE to put up my picture. Unfortunately, when I first joined PE I signed up under an old, pre-American family name. When PE went public & anyone who wanted to could see my profile, I needed to take down my picture in case a family member tried to do some searching for the family roots. I have checked it again and if you place the family name in Google, my PE profile shows up at the bottom of the 2nd page of results. When it drops off, I'll put my picture back up.
I also understand and appreciate the fact that people have lives outside of PE. So do I. I am not a spoiled child who demands the undivided attention of everyone around me. And I am NOT expecting PE to take the place of real life friendships. However, I have tried for years to make friends here so that I COULD meet people. (And before anyone starts into how easy it is to make it to a support group, due to some extremely rare circumstances that I have explained before I can not go to a group in Atlanta. The risk is too great. My wife is very well known and we regularly have people stop us to in public to say hello and we have absolutely no idea who they are. And this regularly happens anywhere within a 50+ mile radius of where we live. I have made inroads into a group in Montgomery & I go when I can, so we don't need to go into that area again. I am probably going to try to make another appointment with the therapist again soon.
I also know, believe, and agree with the philosophy of helping yourself by helping others. I do that on a constant basis including belonging to Church, Civic Organizations, and weekly volunteer work. Yet it seems like every time I really go out on a limb to help someone, it ends up biting me. What's the old saying? No good deed goes unpunished? And yet I am STILL ignored by many. I try to help others, but when do I get help?
So what DO I want out of PE and any friends here? Is it so wrong to ask for someone to send me a message every few weeks to just say hello or to ask how I'm doing? I'm not asking for money, a place to live, a job, gifts, or anything else that has any monetary value. I'd just like to know that SOMEBODY out there can at least ACT like they are concerned about me. Is that too much to ask from people at a SUPPORT site? Or have I misinterpreted what PE is here for? Seriously, As of Thursday night there were 230 views of my original post, yet only 19 people took the time to post a reply or to mark it as seen. So how much time does it take to actually write "I'm sorry you're feeling down. I'll be thinking about you."?
I'm sorry if I am coming across as being angry but honestly, I am. I have done everything I know of to do to attract attention, let people know I'm here, and yet the most frequent message I get in my inbox is alerting me to someones new blog entry. (And please don't misunderstand me. There is nothing wrong with that.)
So what gives? Am I expecting too much from PE? Am I wrong to expect for a friend (And yes, I know it was recently changed to "contact") to talk to me every now & then? Or has PE ceased to actually be a SUPPORT site?