I do so apologize to all my sisters here for being absent so very long; however, my attendance must be necessarily curtailed for the foreseeable future. I just got into grad school, and after having been absent-without-leave from academia for so long, to say I am up to my eyeballs in work and reading is a gross understatement. Two quick notes -
1. Spoiler alert - am AMAZING anecdote follows - reader's digest version. I decided, through a beautiful, truly serendipitous series of events, to return to school. Naturally, being Jodie, I did this at the very last possible moment. The University of Iowa was my former school, so that was my first choice, as they have an absolutely wonderful Philosophy department. As I was going through the drill of getting in, I discovered, to my consternation, that I owed them around 15k. When I was there before, I was in the deepest part of my drunken/doped-up-to-the-gills, in the midst of the disintegration of my one big love and marriage period. I dealt them down to 7 k. But this was still 7 k beyond my grasp, as I literally own nothing but a PC and a bed. I went in to tell the prof, my favorite from the old days, who had been advising me on my re-entry to the U, that I could not return, and that I was being forced by my personal circumstance to attend a lesser school in Iowa, the only state where I can pay in-state tuition. He then wrote me a check for the 7 k!!!!! I am to repay him out of this years student aid receipts. I never, ever, contemplated he would do this, nor would I have ever asked him to. I balled my eyes out in his office, and later at home, many times. What an extraordinary display of the best kind of Love, and charity. Cool, no?
2. I just noticed today that I hardly ever think about my (growing as slowly as a cactus) boobs anymore. They ( or the lack of them) was an obsession before transition, and for some time after. What the meaning of this is, I can not, at this moment, say. They are big enough to show, they're cute, if a bit in the tiny side. And I Love them. But they are no longer a obsession. FYI
To every one here, I Love you. Be safe. Try and find as much happiness as you possibly can. You all have helped me more that I could possibly quantify, or repay, in getting my head straight, and giving me a tranition that took off like a rocket, which is still flying high. I'll stop in when time permits. Promise.