Everyone has a story about that "first time" they crossdressed or the first time they crossdressed in public. Those memories are very powerful. But I think that for many of us, the sense that we were somehow "different" than our other friends was evident much earlier. My story about this realization is below and I hope that in reading it you might have a sense of how Katherine came to be.
My story began one lazy summer afternoon with a group of my playmates when I was about six years old. Our 'game' that afternoon somehow required that one of us cross our neighbor's garden (a grumpy old man) making them think that it was my friend's younger sister.
I remember watching my friend exchange play clothes with his sister - as we waited in the shadows of the trees, my friend appeared to be a young girl walking though the garden. We all thought this was an excellent prank. I haven't a clue why we thought this deception was required but what I do recall now with great clarity is that I could not stop thinking of this event for weeks, months....years as a young boy.
What I remember now is how I wished that it could have been me. Not just to be able to exchange clothes as my friend had - but to actually be that pretty young girl in the garden. This was a feeling that I struggled with from that lazy summer day until the day I finally moved far enough away from home that I felt I could be anyone I dreamed to be - and they did change.
I remember a lot of awkward moments as I built a women's wardrobe - my early (and very clumsy) attempts at make-up, the day I purchased my first wig, heels and breastforms. I spent hours getting dressed, only to stand at the door of my apartment afraid to venture further.
I still hesitate as I stand at my door before going out. But my hesitation now is to check my attitude and pride behind. I want to make sure that I am giving the world the best "person" I can be. Someone that is authentic in word, action and deed. I have to be true to my heart. .
What I have learned through the years is that I don't have to go through life alone. I know that others share this same journey with me. If I show confidence and a smile I can break down many barriers.
Be Proud. .
Head up - shoulders back - Smile On!