I receive so much inspiration and support by reading everybody elses I thought I would write a little about my journey tomorrow.
Tomorrow I am going to see the Psychiatrists at the Montreal General Hospital in the Gender Clinic. This is a 2 year + program that will lead to hormone therapy and eventually the “letter” and a publicly funded reassignment surgery.
Here are a few points of history that got me to this point. My earliest memories are of my gender confusion. I kept it a secret throughout my childhood, although my mom did catch me in her clothes when I was about 16, we talked a bit that day, but never came up again. When I was 25 I told my girlfriend at the time, she was initially supportive but with time it became less and less a part of our relationship. We did marry 3 years later only to divorce 5 months later. I wasn’t happy committing myself to that life.
I have now been with a girl for the last 5 years that is very supportive. I told her almost immediately after we started dating. I came out to a few close friends and we went out a few times in my home town of Edmonton. Then last year on my 32 birthday, I decided that getting out a few times a year wasn’t making me happy. I didn’t like that it was still a secret from most people I knew, and that I felt I had to rely on others to make it happen.
So I have made a few changes to my life. I started talking to a therapist, and made a few trans friends. I have 5 treatments of laser hair removal done, and have come out to most of the important people in my life (still not everyone at school). I go out or have opportunities to go out a few times a week now. I had a nice chat with my mother this morning and I think she is starting to understand. Here are 2 really nice things she said to me this morning
“Of course you know that I prefer to continue with a son but if that is not to be I will support you in whatever is decided or what you decide. You just need to keep an open mind which I am sure you will.”
“As you know I (we) only want you to be the best that you can be and have a good life - I don't want you to be confused about who you are,”
Anyway I just wanted to share a little.
Peace, love, namaste,