I borrowed this word because I seem to have a need every 6 months or so, to remind the many that there are various ways of finding your congruence in this world.
There are a few who, like myself, have an enthusiasm for transition, that only those who know themselves to have to live their life as a woman, no matter what, can display.
The Dal's and the Julia G's live their lives honestly as women, despite the constraints placed upon them.
The Caroline's of the world live their lives with the promise of congruence via surgery and myself and the MmM's of the world live that very congruence, following surgery.
And then there is you.......
Where does the average trans person fit into this scenario.
It disturbs me when I read of people who write a pity blog looking for what they are looking for, who have no plan, no knowledge and no awareness.
They come to Pe seeking their panacea, their elixir of life, yet Pe has never made promises, never actually been anything more than what Chloe advertised it as, a transgender social network, nothing more nothing less.
Well maybe more, for those who can keep it in perspective.
This is the most wonderful site for learning about yourself because the many blog's have a little about you, in nearly each and every one of them.
In over 3 years here, I have learnt so much about myself, about how others see this world and I keep on learning.
That is the beauty of PINKessence.
It disturbs me even greater when I read Diamond Dee's blog, which allows you who have not found your path, an insight into someone who has had surgery and now feels it was wrong for them.
It's actually the first time I have read of an actual case of this where I "know" the person, as against reading something from Renee Richards or Mike Penner, the sports writer who sadly couldn't cope with the loss of male privilege, amongst maybe other things.
And therein lies the key to this conundrum we face as transgender people.
Is our desire for womanhood strong enough to overcome our devastation at the loss of male privilege or is our need for acceptance in this world greater than the need for congruence.
It is a given, that conditions have to be right to be able to transition, Julia G's story over the years is testament to that.
She has endured more hardship than most could stand, yet her desire for congruence was the overriding factor in her life.
I guess you have to have a bit of the " mongrel" in you to cope with the prejudice we endure.
I, myself, on my own, could never have transitioned without the incredible backing and support from a wide group of people, my support network, an essential ingredient in transitioning.
So where does that leave you.
Questioning and leaving no stone unturned until you have found the path that you believe will lead you to a place where YOU can live, that's where.
Not the place you are in, obviously, because life is a misery where you are, but not where I am at either, maybe.
It is your place to find.
So until you do find this place, where you fit into this world, shut your trap and stop with the confessions in your real world.
YOU ARE RUINING LIVES, including your own.
Shut it, until you can be honest with yourself and then, and only then, can you go blabbing to the world, namely family and friends, not to mention workmates and social contacts about your great discovery of yourself.
Transition is not for everybody, it's not for most but if it is for you, plan, organise, plan, prepare, plan and never, ever forget, the journey is not only for you, it is for those around you as well, and plan.
"The goodification in Iraq will be to follow the plan, the plan which we are now in the planning stages of."
Rather than KFC, I'll blame this word, goodification, on Ex-Prez Bush, George Double Ya, I presume.
Pe won't be better or worse for your leaving, but you will be.
Sometime it becomes time to stop being a loser and start becoming a winner.
A song I love,
" let the sun shine in, face it with a grin
smilers never lose and frowners never win..........."
I was about 5 years old when sisters Gail and Rosemary Clooney sang this, about the time I first knew of "girl thoughts' hahahahaha.
Gotta love that and love life.