First Time

Well, here goes... never blogged before... thought I would give it a whirl. Guess I will use this one as a mini autobiography. Hope you enjoy and aren't bored to tears.

I was born to a secretary and a vocal music teacher. I am the eldest of 3 boys. I dressed for the first time at the age of 6 years in my cousin's white ruffled blouse and "leather" mini skirt... it just felt so right!!! Mom found me dressed and I don't remember much of what happened... I had to get changed I remember and mom covered for me to my aunt whose house we were visiting.

I was sexually abused by a male "friend" of the family from the ages of 10 - 12 or so. I was an effeminate kid. Tall, skinny, blonde hair and blue eyes. I was 6' 1" and 135 lbs. upon entering high school. The sexual abuse stopped when I told my mother what was going on and the abuser was confronted. I got some counselling then and was given a clean bill of mental health.

I found alcohol at the age of 16 as many of us do. In my case I quickly became alcoholic. I somehow managed to get through high school and left for college... all the while dressing whenever I could in whatever clothing I could find.

I came home from college and went through an incredible depression after just one semester. I think now that I was running from the whole CD / TG part of me but didn't have the tools to identify it.

I was married at 23 to a wonderful girl after a mere 5 months of dating. Medical miracle... we were married in Feb. and the first child was born in Aug. of the same year. 2 years later we had a second son and 2 years after that, we welcomed a daughter into the family.

I've tried to tell my family about Leigh on several occassions... it hasn't happened yet... and I'm in no hurry to be perfectly honest. We were married 21 years on Feb. 11.

I'm pretty sure my wife must suspect... after finding a bra here... a pair of ladie's jeans there... and a gaff in the washer at one point... YIKES!!!

I thought at one point that the CD/TG feelings were the result of the sexual abuse... and then I took stock and realized I was dressing at least 4 years before the abuse started.

I got sober at the tender age of 22 in Sept. of '87... about 17 months before I was married through the my Higher Power and the program of AA... in that order.

I've tried my whole life to do the "guy" things. I've been a firefighter, a lumberjack, an electrician, a carpenter, and presently... a truck driver. I still don't know what I want to be when I grow up... LOL!!!

I want to take this opportunity to thank the friends I have made here at PE. You know who you are. And just so you know... I do love to chat!!!

May I meet more of you as we trudge the road of happy destiny.

HUGZZZ
Leigh