In less than 3hrs we need to pick up friends at SeaTac who are flying in from Maui, a caravan of 4cars driving up from S.Cali will not be far behind for a week long get together that will include music, food, tales from our racing days both on the tracks and off, and BS about the crap we did to one another in those yrs. Normally I look forward to these gatherings and up until last evening that hadn't changed. Yesterday after going door to door to let his neighbors know that there would be live music,that they were welcome to come on over and there might be cars/bikes behaving badly, Don and I went out for a bite to eat. Since getting back to the car I have not been able to stop crying,I haven't slept my heart is pounding, and I can't stop shaking. I look a fracking mess. At dinner he told me he and Mary have been talking. He told her he was going to ask me to think about moving in with him this fall. And they'd been talking for several weeks.That I have not completely accepted the fact I am a woman.????WTH. We Do Not have an open marriage! Mary said nothing to me before I left and the only advice when I called this morning was I was a big girl, put on your big girl panties and what did you expect after 2yrs. 1972 I threw a few things into a '69 Camaro drove north from LA on Interstate5 until I was turned back at the Canadian border and settle here in WA. I lived under a rock for over 2 yrs before one of the people who will be here in just a few hours located me through one of my sisters. I have that same feeling again. I want to run.I want to hide.Why did he not wait till everyone was gone or did he discuss this with someone else,his daughter? He has asked her advice in the past. Who else? Shouldn't I have been the 1st one to discuss this with, not the last?