"Boy mode? I think not"

so!! mom came over to drop some things off and i begged her to take my bed sheets home to wash them, because i don't have access to a washer/dryer. she had mentioned that her and my step dad were going to renew their wedding vows , and that i was invited, but that i would be able to come, IF i was in "boy mode" i knew that she was going to say that due to the look on her face.....i bluntly said "no" she explained to me that she wanted it to be about her and him and not about my "coming out" and "changing" and i totally understood that, however i am NOT going to down play anything as its just not who i am. i did the boy mode once and it felt totally wrong. i am NOT a boy, male, man, or whatever you want to call it.......she did say that she loves me as her child, and that's about it.......i will not trash everything ive worked for , just for her......no frickin way