"We are One"
Be nice to your skin, or else!
Hi PE'ers :) Well, I'm a few short months into HRT, and the most pronounced change so far is my skin. It's lovely that it's shiny, and thinner, but I'm having to learn to respect how fragile it actually is now (and also that it seems to heal very slowly when you do injure it. Really I'm developing whole new habits of moisturizing and doing the things women have to do. I never really appreciated that it might be needed before, I just thought women were buying unnecessary products to feel pampered, but oh no, moisturizer is necessary.
Yesterday I assembled a desk for my office. I was a carpenter, and even with those skills it took 4 hours of turning a screwdriver and handling dusty wood, to build this, so it was a man's job. And I know it was, because my hands are absolutely wrecked now. I couldn't possibly handle nylons at the moment, put it that way. And I scratched my touchscreen phone :p
So..it's about skin right now, for me.
But other than trans issues, my thing is writing. That's why I bought the desk. I want a new career in that area.
Also current stuff for me... I'm unhappy with America entirely. I would like to move to Europe, where they aren't right wing and have a sane amount of socialism "for the people" and all, you know. I don't want to discuss political and social reality, but I will say I actually find America a weird scary place to be. There is so bloody much going awful here, I'm surprised people aren't storming their "white house" with pitchforks and torches, to take it back, but they aren't, so it all worsens. So I really want to move. I'm from England. Maybe I'll go back. I expect things might get violent in America before too long, and I just don't want to live in such a climate. (Having said all that, I'd gladly help to fix it if I saw people doing something to that end.) Maybe the Occupy movement will lead to that, who knows. But i feel pessimistic about it, and I'm just seriously unhappy about being part of something grotesquely wrong when no one's doing anything about it.
Well..
TODAY"S QUESTION: Skin! How do you deal with it being so fragile? I feel myself transitioning into someone who'll have to ask a man to build my desk for me next time..and I don't know how I feel about becoming dependent like that. ,,like I had to ask two guys for help moving my TV recently because I haven't the muscle to lift it anymore.
So SECOND QUESTION: how do you feel about turning into someone kind of helpless like that? How do you deal with that change? I plan on thinking of it as feminine, and enjoying it, but there is a loss involved here of sorts.
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Comment by Caroline Grace on February 2, 2012 at 11:29pm
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Your blog wanders a bit... skin care to moving across continents? Not sure how to respond, so I'll stick with skin care... Somethings about skin care I have learned: Exfoliate, exfoliate, exfoliate... Shaving helps guys exfoliate. Once shaving stops, women need to exfoliate. Ditto for arms, legs, and elsewhere. The older you are the more you need to do this...
Get rid of soap and start using body wash...
Gloves work... especially when doing men's work...
Being helpless works sometimes... It can save your back. I love it when the guys lift heavy things for me and my back stays intact. Of course, I still climb ladders and do "guy" stuff when required... I am a woman's libber through and through.
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Comment by Jill Ellen Jaymees on February 3, 2012 at 1:18pm -
lol, yea I didn't do a great job writing that. I wanted to point to the three major things in my life. ..like a personal update. Being a disgruntled (and even a bit frightened) American is definitely foremost in my mind. But meanwhile I'm going through female puberty, and trying to switch to a career that could travel and won't mind my gender. ;)
Writing takes a lot of time to do well though, and I still have a lot to learn and develop there (it seems to be the story of my life right now, "learning and developing.)
Right now I'm toying with a book idea. I want to write of the popular "stupidisms" in our society. It's not a good way to make friends, pointing out people's major flaws, but I think folks need to wake up and do something about some things that so aren't ok. Stupidisms are the excuses we all make automatically, unexamined (like a parrot) for doing nothing about the awful things we really ought to stop passively supporting. (I wont list said "awful things" here now) But I see people live like ostriches, each feeling too small among the larger picture to affect it. Thing is though, if we all feel that way, we all do nothing. So my job is to change how we all feel. (Ha! That'll be easy, right?) mm, well I can always just popularize a few concepts on the internet and watch the discussion, and settle for a much smaller scale of impact like that. But damn it I want to be someone. lol
oops but I wander in my own thoughts here, don't I? But isn't that what a blog is for? Or are these to be more like discussion threads? (I think the former..a blog is a diary.. .
Okay I'm going to post this without working the words because my cat, Captain Meow, is poking me for dinner (and every poke hole he makes in my skin seems to last forever now, so.. Have a great day all! -Ellen
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Comment by Jill Ellen Jaymees on February 3, 2012 at 3:36pm
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Thank you Caroline. I'll use that advice. And Connie, awesome! I so enjoyed reading your comment. I had a couple laughs even. Wow, thank you for stopping by and giving the time to that :)
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Comment by Traci O'Gara on February 3, 2012 at 7:52pm -
Want to avoid the scratches, cuts , and bruises??? Avoid the things that cause them...(smile) For me, when it's time to change the oil in my car, I just buy a new one! LOL
Traci xoxo
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