Hi PE'ers :) Well, I'm a few short months into HRT, and the most pronounced change so far is my skin. It's lovely that it's shiny, and thinner, but I'm having to learn to respect how fragile it actually is now (and also that it seems to heal very slowly when you do injure it. Really I'm developing whole new habits of moisturizing and doing the things women have to do. I never really appreciated that it might be needed before, I just thought women were buying unnecessary products to feel pampered, but oh no, moisturizer is necessary.
Yesterday I assembled a desk for my office. I was a carpenter, and even with those skills it took 4 hours of turning a screwdriver and handling dusty wood, to build this, so it was a man's job. And I know it was, because my hands are absolutely wrecked now. I couldn't possibly handle nylons at the moment, put it that way. And I scratched my touchscreen phone :p
So..it's about skin right now, for me.
But other than trans issues, my thing is writing. That's why I bought the desk. I want a new career in that area.
Also current stuff for me... I'm unhappy with America entirely. I would like to move to Europe, where they aren't right wing and have a sane amount of socialism "for the people" and all, you know. I don't want to discuss political and social reality, but I will say I actually find America a weird scary place to be. There is so bloody much going awful here, I'm surprised people aren't storming their "white house" with pitchforks and torches, to take it back, but they aren't, so it all worsens. So I really want to move. I'm from England. Maybe I'll go back. I expect things might get violent in America before too long, and I just don't want to live in such a climate. (Having said all that, I'd gladly help to fix it if I saw people doing something to that end.) Maybe the Occupy movement will lead to that, who knows. But i feel pessimistic about it, and I'm just seriously unhappy about being part of something grotesquely wrong when no one's doing anything about it.
TODAY"S QUESTION: Skin! How do you deal with it being so fragile? I feel myself transitioning into someone who'll have to ask a man to build my desk for me next time..and I don't know how I feel about becoming dependent like that. ,,like I had to ask two guys for help moving my TV recently because I haven't the muscle to lift it anymore.
So SECOND QUESTION: how do you feel about turning into someone kind of helpless like that? How do you deal with that change? I plan on thinking of it as feminine, and enjoying it, but there is a loss involved here of sorts.