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Hi all recently i left the great state of montana to venture off as Darla for the summer.So far so good.I have met great freinds in chicago Minneapolis and wisconsin.I am staying in a freinds cabin on the lake as i write this.I must add a wonderful supportive freind (Julie i love you)When in Chicago last week i went mainstream shopping eating out and all of this seems so natural,no fear and not uncomfortble in my own skin.People are very accepting and i find that most of us are to busy to worry what someone else is thinking or looking at.No bad cooments cat calls nothing like that,although as checked into a motel in chicago a women checking in was very taken by me and was sure to let me know what room she was in and i should come and visit!I didnt.I am all set up to stay with a wonderful freind in chicago,but this where i am very afraid.I have been married for 33 years to the most wonderful spouse in the world,she is very supportive and wants me to have a great life (the best life ever)The facts are that im afraid to move on im afraid to leave a life i have known for many years i miss the comfort given to to me by my spouse.Freinds family children grandchildren all this is so confusing to me.I have made a commitment to my wife you know in sickness and in health all those words.I dont want to die alone away from what i know! I was blessed to tell one of my sisters last week as she knew something is going on.She welcomed me with open loving arms for that i am truely greatfull love you sis.I am Afraid to move on,its me holding me back,and i dont know why.So here i am alone and frightened.Hope i can go on.Thanks

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Comment by Laura Renee Lawrence on May 11, 2011 at 9:43am
Darla, you are dealing with some of the most basic and profound issues that anyone will ever face. I am lucky in that I have found a therapist who both my wife and I really like and she helps us work through our issues. If you haven't yet, I encourage you to find yourself a supportive and understanding therapist.
Comment by Julia Giannopoulos on May 11, 2011 at 10:46am
Darla,

Believe me I know this pain all too well. :O(
Stay strong, work on you and keep moving forward.
I believe in you and love you sis.


Julia
Comment by Karen Smith on May 11, 2011 at 10:50am
I agree with Laura. But be ready for feelings of resentment and anger from your spouse; I'm married, and I'm transitioning, so I understand.

I'm unclear on your blog post - does the wife already know you are considering or pursuing transition?
Comment by Kyndra Alanis Nevin on May 11, 2011 at 10:56am
My sister was and is such a blessing for me in my transition, I'm glad to hear you are finding support from yours. It's so scary, but it does get better.
Comment by Darla Rose Klein on May 11, 2011 at 11:10am
Laura yes my spouse knows of my transitiong,she is most supportive.She wants the best for me.At her suggestion im here as she said you need to find out for myself be darla live as darla and make a decision.I have support of a great therapist and also have received my letter for HRT.I beleive im the one who is not moving on!Go figure.Thanks all
Comment by Rachel King on May 12, 2011 at 7:16am
Darla, I'm wondering also about where your wife sits as far as remaining a couple pre/post transitioning?
It would seem that you are the one wanting to move on.
Do you have to, do you want to, does she want you to, does she insist that you do?
Sorta left in two minds about offering any insight I might have, when it is so unclear.
Having said that, I wish you pleasure in life as a woman facing the world.
I know and understand how beautiful it is.

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