I decided to write about who Maria is. Maria has been in development since her (my) teen years.
So this is why i started crossdressing for me it was a desire when I was in my early preteens to try on some women's clothing. My grandmother had a trunk of old clothes at her house and we played dress up. When I first tried on womens clothes it gave me a thrill. I was not sure at first if it was because it was forbben or sexual.
What I did know for sure was that it was something I want to do again and again. It has taking me this long to finally understand what these feeling were to me and how to explore them. So it just slowly became the logical way to express my femmine side.
Any a few guarded friends know about Maria, so someday other may find out but for now she is a secret.