OK... so I have been having to go in male mode lately because of not coming out yet to my family.... but I got to thinking this morning.... What exactly does male mode entail... My first thought is that I hafta wear male clothes... But yesterday that meant womens jeans, womens underwear, and a tee shirt... That is no different than I would wear on a normal day...(except I had no bra on...) And then I looked at the attitude I put on... and it was almost comical yesterday... We get to my parents house and I'm eating sorbet, sipping on an Italian Soda, and I start chatting with mom.... then dad walks in and I start with "How about those Padres???" It was like the scene from the Birdcage.... Next, My mother had a student arrive for dog training, so we go outside and meet her... The student and I start talking about animals, and I swear looking back, we sounded like two schoolgirls that hadn't seen each other in a while!!!
I'm beginning to think that I just can't carry the macho facade for much longer, just because I am losing the knack..... or is it because I just don't care anymore??? Or could it be that my life is so good just being me, that that is what I really want to do??? I'm thinking the latter.... I know that rough times lie ahead, but I'm just not feeling them right now.... Just gotta tell the parents and get on with it so that Male Mode will no longer exist!!!!