So, It's been a long long time since I've posted on here. But things were, chaotic to say the least. In late february I found a testicular masse which I had believed was cancer. At first, It was rather harmless, then march came around. In the beginning of march I had to move out of my house with a quickness, a string of unfortunate circumstances left me, and my roomates with a much lower income. I had exactly 30 days to find a new job with a higher income then I ever had before, or be rendered homeless and away from those people who i grew close too over the years.
I had a great bit of promise at this new job, I was so close! I was going to an interview at this grocery store we stumbled upon. The interview went fantasticly, the deli and the butcher department were fighting for who gets to hire me, the deli even put me on the schedule for training. until they realized they hadn't completed a background check yet. I called every other day, asking them if they had, and eventually the general manager said "the position has been filled"
That was when the masse became painful, crippling so. I sat at my compter filling out a starbucks application determined to press on when i doubled over in pain. my vision went white, I couldnt breath. I couldnt hear anything. my nose started to bleed from how hard I was crying. The pain seemed like it lasted forever. I was fortunate, to fall unconcious.
from that day, The pain was chaotic. It came for short 5 minute bursts. the only things i found that guarenteeably caused it were sex, and stress. the pain, then- became more constant. like a bruised numbness between the flashes of white stabbing pain.
My doctor gave me a prescription for painkillers, but I was, and am. on vicodin 24/7 there's no way I can work. both my surgeon at the hospital, and my family doctor believe the masse has to come out.
I am currently awaiting surgical loan money for my procedure.