In case, I was asked if I had known two years ago how far I could become myself in these 24 months, I'd have to answer NO! I feel my changes towards like a little wonder that has started as I felt ready to accept myself as Julia and to start walking my way slowly step by step and stopped just to dream how my further way might look like ... The fear, the changes of the shaved, hairless skin on arms and legs might wonder my parents soon lost its meaning as it became usual for me to shave again from time to time and to see that after every shaving less hairs came back again ...My experiments to find the right place for the little holes for earrings in the beginning were often unfortunately "bloody" and my family asked me from time to time what had happened to my ears ... since three months by now I've found this right place and its actually just a thing of some secounds to pull in the earrings through the holes ... I'm standing in front of my mirror then and then always smile full of joy seeing me then as a woman in her own place.
My collection of clothes has pieces for each situation from sporty shirts and leggings for some exersises up to evening dresses for special evenings like new years beginning. Ok, I've also different pairs of shoes and necklace for the "alldays' look" up to a special one for my evening dresses.And this year I've dared for the first time at all to take a swim and a sun bath in my swimsuit, when I was in vacation and it was a sunny day at a river with "beach-places" in the mountains ...
By herbal hormones also my changes get sightable and I'm very proud of the changes my body's going actually through.
I also know that a too quick development and too many changes too far will be dangerous for my further way as long as I haven't made my public start to come out, but thinking that I'm living as a woman in the last months every day for about 10-11 hours and in parts 24h at the weekends is another surprising development I hadn't dared to dream about or to hope just one year ago. Altogether I just can say: I'm absolutely happy about my changes and developments yet and this actual new female dominated life is such a beautiful new experience for me and also important for me to become myself with a strong and happily grown selfconfidence ... Thanks to all of you here who always have given me hope and selfconfidence as I could read and knew that also had to go this way or actually are going with me on the same street ... on the street to become ourselves and happy women! Love & many hugs to all of you from your