Phoenix wolf laforest's Blog (5)

why is it that me for the most part being a good person has give away people i love when i feel that whey will be better off if i let them go? why do i let it happen over and over knowing its going to hurt me in the end. why is it i cant seam to stop my self form caring ? how come i am so willing to fight for others but not my self ? and the real big one why cant i seam to ever let go of the ones i have truly loved ? i need to know why i do this so i can turn it off please ♥

i am not…

"when your lost and have no map, GPS or stares to guide you how will you know your on the right path ? you don't you just go were your heart takes you and know that it cant be wrong no matter how much fear you may hold" Phoenix 85-** 

Phoenix Firelove ‎"if i die now i am no longer sad or scard because i got to truly live my real life i will not die alone i have the love of myself " July 16 at 8:43am 

Phoenix Firelove ‎"no pain anyone can give me is worse then the pain…

all you people that may disbelieve  me about this being real the only time i think i may be worried about this is when i have the fear about others.... its hard to get rid of the fear your carried for 21 years but its slowly slipping away and i will be damned or dead before i let anyone put me back there... thank you all for the support love i send to you..

i have bin living a lie for all but about 4 days on my life and its like a dream now, sometimes i find my self wondering…

hello my name is Phoenix i have decide to stop hiding and i want to be the real me... i am lost and scard and really do not know what to do.... i worry what people will think of me.

i say i do not care what others think and say but it dose chip away at ones self. i do not know what to do. i have taken some steps to open up and letting some trusted friends and loved ones know about me and how i have bin hiding. one seamed to take me for real but the other seamed to think i was playing…