Nichole D'Angelo's Blog (60)

I am sitting here getting ready to frantically pack for my trip to Chicago tomorrow.  It's funny, my first surgery I was calm and not jitters at all.  This one I am freaking out inside.  I guess it is more the week of pain I fear or maybe it's the changing the way I have looked all my life.  Not sure.  All I know is that I am now in bed, looking up information on the before and after shots, procedures and anything else that can freak me out.

It's been a long time getting here.…

I've been here on PE off and on for over or about 2 years.  It has been a place where I have now made many long term friendships.  It is also a place where I found confidence and compassion.  I won't say that I would not be here without PE, but being a member has sure made getting here easier.

My life has been trough many milestones since 2009.  My ex left me…

It has been a while since I logged into Pink Essence. My life has become quite filled with things to do and the time I get for myself has been limited greatly. But today as I look at the date, it hit me, two weeks ago today marked the day that I made a decision to finally face my gender dysphoria and do something about it.



My story is here already. I like many others had these feeling at a very young age and fought against them for the better part of 40 years. But as my 44th…

The days of having a life and trying to have a blog and a youtube channel are tough. Balancing life, work, kids a girlfriend and transition is quite a balancing act. Sometime so hard I forget just who I am and what role I am in at a given moment. People are starting to take notice.... and wonder... and question.…

When I was a child summer was always looked forward too. Those days from Late June to the beginning of September were spent doing so many things. The summer just seemed to last forever.…

I know I posted here that I had a youtube video channel. Well now it has videos and with the third one up I thought I'd post here in my blog my intentions and ask for feedback. Read on. this is lifted from my blog at http://web.me.com/sarahmaybe…

Yesterdays entry about being in a shitty mood due to my mom telling my brother has to be listed as a major overreaction. I do not know why I let this go so far. I am in transition and need to ground myself more often. My brother needed to know. I waited too long. My mother told him by mistake forgetting it was my brother Christian that I told. I am over it and have…

The beginning of transition for me was spent with much of self examination. Before making a decision to become a woman I needed to be sure that indeed that was a destiny I desired. In the end it wasn’t just one I desired, it was one I had to mover towards.…

This week has been quite a big one in both good and bad. I started the week with the thought that I soon would be broke due to my finances dwindling from my quick acceptance of my divorce settlement. I had my therapy session on Monday and then initially had a visit to Dr. Hudson on Tuesday. What I thought may be a…