January 2012 Blog Posts (174)

Sometimes when people tell me I look pretty, it bothers me, because they are often saying it to be nice, and I end up feeling like they not only feel I'm too fragile to get my feelings hurt, but aren't willing to acknowledge that the way I look is a problem I have to deal with. I'd rather get tips or encouragement than compliments most of the time, unless I'm genuinely doing something right.…

I've had a rough couple of days. I feel like I just stepped into quicksand after feel like I was just standing still but if I look back to where I was a year ago I've made great leaps. I pulled out my IRA early so I can jump start my electrolysis and now it's time to pay the piper. I went to the ER a month ago for a panic attack and I just discovered what my portion of the bill is. I now have extra debt that was slightly unexpected. It seems that my electrolysis is just going on and on even…

hey all = ) ,

just thought i would write a blog about fake people.to my understanding through life, you meet alot of different people. the key word is "different".Being different is a good thing and not a bad thing.I am very much different than alot of people and i admit, but i share similar qualities with people to.for example, i have 2 feet,2 hand, a head , and most importantly a brain. thus giving me a thought process. I am not dumb in any way i figure things out faster than the…

Can anyone please let me know what they do for pain associated with electrolysis. I am looking for what types of Gel I can get or ask for a prescription. I also have Crohn's disease so it make life a little more complicated when I do not feel well to start. Any recommendations that you have used of heard of so I can handle it.
thank you

When I have some important things to do , like a drs  apt , presentation , or important meeting , I have either dark brown of black hair ! When I am out with friends having fun  on a weekend and or going out ,   I go as a blonde ! I can say for me , I have experienced more fun being a blonde , where as when I am sporting dark hair, I have been told that I look good , but  that I look too serious ! Even though my mom has yet  to  see me as a female, I would have to say she would also like me…

One of my favorite quotes by Windston Churchill is, "If you're going through hell, keep going!"

On that note, I've never been a huge fan of country, but I saw this song with that phrase in it, and thought I'd share it, since I love the lyrics and I figured it might be helpful for people having a rough time :)

So the year is 2012 a new year and I have moved from Virginia to Illinois, actually this was more for my moral than anything. I could have stayed in Virginia to finish the Chemo process, live in a small bedroom and not be Shauna for another 4 months but would I be happy, I think not.



My younger brother packed up the trailer on Wednesday, even though he did not want me to leave. I guess I hurt him in a way but I never want to be a burden to anyone, he was absolutely my savor during…

Perhaps some  of you "more mature" readers remember "The Twilight Zone" television series.

As a youth, the  mixture of self-contained drama, psychological thriller, fantasy,…

Hello everyone,

This is where I will keep updates of my timelines to document my progress.

 Abbey

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Update on Divorce and Custody battle:

It’s been about  8 moths now into the process.

The EX wants full custody. I’m want shared 50/50 parenting.

Initially the Hamilton County courts ordered default parenting orders. The she gets 75%; I got 25% parenting time. Technically I don’t have any parenting rights.

Along with that, since the magistrate didn’t want to touch the case, he sent the case to the judge. Additionally a Parenting Investigation is ordered. The…

Hello girls,



This is my introduction, sorry it has taken so long but I have been busy. That with trying to figure out what to say as this is my first blog I have ever done. I am a 36yo Transexual woman who recently came out to myself and my family. I am what I call a 118 girl as there is…

I have chatted with all of you over the past months or so concerning the increasing detachment I am experiencing with my male self.

Tonight I visited with a genetic female friend who I have come out to verbally-not visually.

Earlier in the day I browsed one of the local antique malls in jeans, boots and sweater. Just a blond with a touch of foundation, eye makeup and lipstick.

For the get together with her,  I washed the foundation and lipstick from my face and removed my…

Heya,

This isn't going to be exactly perfect or complete both because my memory is a bit fuzzy at times and because I've got homework due tomorrow, but I'd like to at least write something about who I am and how I came to be me.

Its /mostly/ complete and somewhat uncensored/tmi because I talk about my weird drama with friends a lot, so as long as YOU'RE okay with reading about it and won't think I'm a weird or a gross person for writing it, its fine with me if you read it. I've…

Somewhere, a young boy is curled up in a ball and crying under the covers of his bed, engulfed in the almost complete darkness that now surrounds both his body and his heart. The house has settled down again, mercifully.. and all that can be heard now is the soft whistle of wind against the side of the house. This boy was recently beaten…

Rachel,

I am sorry if I upset you. It certainly was not my intent.  I am making my apology to you publicly on my blog page. The word qwippets just popped into my head. What I meant by it was the descriptive terms you used such as "pickle me Grandmother" and "sputtering froth". While they may be common expessions in Aussie land, I found them quite refreshing, charming, and they made me giggly.---Blessings, Elynn

Well its been quite a while since I updated my blog but so many things have been happening all at once its been crazy.

So Since my last Post my medications have been upped/changed a bit as I'm on 10mg Premarin, and now 50mg Androcur as an anti androgen instead of finestride.

Yesterday had my most recent session with my consultant and he gave me all the documentation, letters of referral etc so I can at last start on my required Surgical Procedures.

1st one Im…

So today i was reading a few blog posts and i found most very interesting that i had to write and make a few statements on them and i do state in one of my other blogs getting cold feet when people you don't want seeing you as your other self!

An i tried to make my blogs in common with eachother leading to questions that me, myself and I have always ask and the reason for stating blogs is to see if anyone on here has had the same problems, fears, hopes and believes i share.. And yes…

 So this is just the 2 part of the Religion Blog post stating ? and asking more...

Very good comments Maria:)))))

But in other words what if you don't want to be like this and i know many trans women are proud of who they are and i certainly am by the way but i was not always like this when i was little i would always get shunned down for being what i am and teased and that certainly didn't feel very good at all so in those time i would always pray and at first i did reject…