Well, it's been about two months now since I told my parents about my crossdressing by letters, and my life is drastically unchanged. At the end of May I sent a letter to my dad, his girlfriend, my mom, and a previous coworker who has been like a second mom to me, and there were no negative reactions. The only thing that has really changed is that I can be a little more open about myself and not have to hide as much. I should have done this much sooner, and encourage others to do so as…Read More
As we hunt for ourselves, we look back. The things we could not do haunt us in the the thoughts of what we can do. We feel tied back. The bindings,the restraints, to hold our physical presentation, and the gag to hold our voice.
There comes a time when we must face our own selves, seek a place that we truly belong. It does not matter how other's see you, what really matters is how you see yourself. We all need a place some where. Some where to ......Belong.…Read More
Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 15, 2014 at 12:03pm — No Comments
The freedom, the escape. The this is me statement. To live a double life, hating one and loving the other. A product of a mixed up life. Growing up wanting to be a girl, but forced to be a boy. All my life I forced myself to be a boy, then a man, only to retreat into a private world. My world. Happiness was short lived, complicated by the thought, I have to go back to being a man.
The cycle is horrendous, confusing. I struggle. Never happy, yet never really sad. I've had a good life,…Read More
Lavern Cox is nominated for an Emmy. WOW! This is big on many levels; but especially for the children.
When I was young I had no role models. I did not know of another little boy who loved to play with Barbie's and make/sew clothes for Barbie and GI Joe. I did not think anything was wrong with it; but I never told another boy even though as a 7, 8 and nine year old my world was pretty small.
As I got older; when I thought of myself I was torn between super heroes, amine and…Read More
Added by sara simone on July 15, 2014 at 1:11am — No Comments
Well it has been 4 years since I had my surgery. Please understand I do not consider myself "more of a woman" then my pre-op sisters. I am just a person who felt horrible for 60 years and never felt I belonged for a single day in my life. Now I am happy and realize that for some of us the srs aspect is required to make us feel "complete". I feel terrible that so many of my sisters can not complete the physical change for many valid reasons. I also respect the choice of…Read More
Just got off the phone with the Endo, and I'm back on Hormone Therapy effective this November. Finally, after 21 years!
doin' the happy dance
So the last few weeks have been extremely memorable.
Firstly, since I had the opportunity to spend a few weekends fully as Angie, I would have the following routine:
a. Bolt from the office Friday - head to have my nails done (red!!)
b. Be Angie mode 100% all Friday night till Sunday night - just doing stuff being Angie, nothing special
c. Remove hand nail polish Sunday night but keep toe nail polish till Weds
Mon and Tues - get into Angie mode immediately…Read More
Folk lore, nothing but old folks gossiping...
The lady in the basement, don't dare venture there.
I had to laugh, after all I was on vacation, enjoying a bourbon. Still it seemed every where I went, the talk led to this house.
On my third night, after a few drinks I became bored, it was raining, thunder broke the silence. I had to see. The house, the basement, I just had to see. I loaded my camera, just in case.
Folk lore has it that this old woman was be-traded,…Read More
Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 3:19pm — No Comments
Standing, trying to keep focused. Yet the pain dis-focuses you, and is seen by the person you face. You try to look calm, yet project a confused, dis-tracked look about you. You loose the job interview wondering as you rub your feet...what went wrong?
Pain, that pretty pain that steals your soul. The one thing that takes away your most important talk, …Read More
I almost always read a profile after I read someone's blog post, and then read the blog post again; in order to better understand the context of that person's life. But we move around, life is not set in one place, and circumstances change.
Very often......I read about someone whose self-description identifies them as such-and-such, or in a particular place in life. They are members here for a few years and life changes; for them and around them. There are divorces, ugly family…Read More
Whats wrong with this picture? I was going to delete it but felt there was a potential story to go along with it.
My life is fuzzy at the moment, not sure of the future, so the…Read More
What the heck? I know, I know, I did it and well...
When we get to point where were are comfortable, or where friends we have are comfortable with us in a sexual manner things can change really fast (like 15 minutes) to really weird.
Oddly enough one of my few guy friends who I have known for 20+ years and whom held on as a supporter during my transition has now become the biggest a-hole;and yeah I forgive, and feel bad for him.
The scene was at my friends house, his…Read More
I hope this bog post is received with the intent I offer.
I logged into PE everyday. I enjoy the profile and pictures of those in possession of more courage than I maintain. In many cases Im amazed at the transformations. The amazement is often a double-edged sword: always thinking to myself "I can do this" and quickly followed by the thought "I'll never pull this off". In my own vanity I refuse to become just another man in a dress. If I cant do this right, if i cant blend in and…Read More
I received this from Denee yesterday and she allowed me to pass it on here for your information,
It is a letter emailed by her Lawyer who represented Denee in her Court battle to overturn the Medicare policy refusing GRS to be a Medicare funded operation.
This is an add-on to LindaMarie's blog about this topic.
"spoke with Lxxxx Hxxxxx today and the short update is that it’s still going to take a bit of time to work this out. I told Lxxxx that Presbyterian…Read More
I'm so happy I found time again for a nexr girls-weekend with my best friend Lena in Regensburg, where she is at university and is was…Read More
Added by Julia Lena Seventyone on July 7, 2014 at 2:40am — No Comments
Are you from the Tidewater/Hampton Roads, Virginia area? If you are, then I want to hear from you!!! I want to start putting together a TG Resource list for our area. I am interested in what services/providers you liked, what services and providers you didn't like, and what services you would like to see in our area. Any topic is fair game: hormone therapy, sexual therapy, laser hair removal, electrolysis,…Read More
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Added by sara simone on July 5, 2014 at 7:30pm — No Comments
I am looking for some advice for/from the gender queer folks. I am questioning myself, there are some things I really like about HRT and my MTF transition, but others not so much.
So let me give you a little background, then I will ask some awkward questions.
I have been on hrt for two years, and living as a woman full time since just a couple of months after starting hormones. At first everything was wonderful. I was so excited to finally be me that I just wanted to be as…Read More
I thought it would be important to share this information to all of you.
It's no secret that I am attracted to men, that said, I only date guys I've actually met in person and in a public place and of course I never drink nor do I ride in their car until after a sense of friendship and trust has been achieved. In addition, I prefer to meet guys that my other friends may know, or whom I may have known in the past; okay you get it I'm paranoid and am cautious.
Recently I began to…Read More