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moved

Have moved to ST George Utah,am looking for a cabin in the mountians to live in .peace and quiet no people .I turn 70 this year and want to enjoy the rest of my life fishing and hunting,estrogen doesn't change what I've always enjoyed doing.just , what I look and feel like. Love to all Carman

Added by carman on July 31, 2014 at 1:09pm — 1 Comment

So I can't dance

Eyes are on me. I'm scared to even walk. Joe Blow gives a whistle, Lucy give a ...you wanna us girl ?....

I'm not sure where I am at, just know I'm scared.

I wonder, do I really fit in?.

Rejected at every turn. Still, I move on.

Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 30, 2014 at 12:14pm — No Comments

Coming out again

I see my new doctor in just two weeks from now. I've came out to my last doctors, and now face it again. I'm not full time, I work male. It can be hard, scary and a feeling of insecurity. I will still be in uniform when I go and kind of dread it.

I'm doing something different this time. I've put together a portfolio of pictures to take and show him. I will be talking about starting hrt. I will also discuss my long range goal of grs. 

Am I really up to this? After all, I've been…

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 30, 2014 at 9:25am — 7 Comments

The whole stroy

 

http://www.voicesonthesquare.com/tags/roxanne-joganik        

This is the first story this is the end story.......…

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Added by Roxanne Joganik on July 28, 2014 at 11:51pm — 4 Comments

I am simply AMAZED

at the number of people who are lining up to take advantage of the recent Medicare ruling on services for transgender people.

I rejoiced it as well but I also know that there is current NO groundwork laid to make it a reality.  That decision paves the way to investigate how the application process would be handled, documentation requirements, and what are considered legitimate facilities to allow these procedures to be performed at.

If I were everyone, I'd unpack and go about…

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Added by Dal Maxwell on July 25, 2014 at 11:40am — 1 Comment

Hello sitting at Home waiting on my money from my fair housing ,,

 Well is it  Over???  Yes and No  I have a deal with Texan RV only ..Is it a win well m maybe I live full time as a Female and I am Happy so it is a win also.... I stood up for what I feel and know is…

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Added by Roxanne Joganik on July 24, 2014 at 12:00am — 7 Comments

Out to my parents

Well, it's been about two months now since I told my parents about my crossdressing by letters, and my life is drastically unchanged.  At the end of May I sent a letter to my dad, his girlfriend, my mom, and a previous coworker who has been like a second mom to me, and there were no negative reactions.  The only thing that has really changed is that I can be a little more open about myself and not have to hide as much.  I should have done this much sooner, and encourage others to do so as…

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Added by Janelle Dawn Drake on July 17, 2014 at 9:23am — 5 Comments

The things we cannot be

As we hunt for ourselves, we look back. The things we could not do haunt us in the the thoughts of what we can do. We feel tied back. The bindings,the restraints, to hold our physical presentation, and the gag to hold our voice.

There comes a time when we must face our own selves, seek a place that we truly belong. It does not matter how other's see you, what really matters is how you see yourself. We all need a place some where. Some where to ......Belong.…

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 15, 2014 at 12:03pm — No Comments

To wear a dress

The freedom, the escape. The this is me statement. To live a double life, hating one and loving the other. A product of a mixed up life. Growing up wanting to be a girl, but forced to be a boy. All my life I forced myself to be a boy, then a man, only to retreat into a private world. My world. Happiness was short lived, complicated by the thought, I have to go back to being a man.

The cycle is horrendous, confusing. I struggle. Never happy, yet never really sad. I've had a good life,…

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 15, 2014 at 10:49am — 11 Comments

Congratulations Lavern Cox for your Emmy nomination

Lavern Cox is nominated for an Emmy. WOW! This is big on many levels; but especially for the children.

When I was young I had no role models. I did not know of another little boy who loved to play with Barbie's and make/sew clothes for Barbie and GI Joe. I did not think anything was wrong with it; but I never told another boy even though as a 7, 8 and nine year old my world was pretty small.

As I got older; when I thought of myself I was torn between super heroes, amine and…

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Added by sara simone on July 15, 2014 at 1:11am — No Comments

4 years post op and enjoying my change

Hi everyone,

Well it has been 4 years since I had my surgery. Please understand I do not consider myself "more of a woman" then my pre-op sisters. I am just a person who felt horrible for 60 years and never felt I belonged for a single day in my life. Now I am happy and realize that for some of us the srs aspect is required to make us feel "complete".  I feel terrible that so many of my sisters can not complete the physical  change for many valid reasons. I also respect  the choice of…

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Added by Brenda Brook on July 12, 2014 at 10:25pm — 6 Comments

OH HAPPY DAY!

YAY ME!

Just got off the phone with the Endo, and I'm back on Hormone Therapy effective this November.  Finally, after 21 years!

doin' the happy dance

Added by Michelle Stark on July 11, 2014 at 11:37am — 4 Comments

I guess I pass ...

So the last few weeks have been extremely memorable.

Firstly, since I had the opportunity to spend a few weekends fully as Angie, I would have the following routine:

a. Bolt from the office Friday - head to have my nails done (red!!)

b. Be Angie mode 100% all Friday night till Sunday night - just doing stuff being Angie, nothing special

c. Remove hand nail polish Sunday night but keep toe nail polish till Weds

Mon and Tues - get into Angie mode immediately…

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Added by Angeline Foo on July 9, 2014 at 8:06pm — 5 Comments

The Fire Side Stories

Folk lore, nothing but old folks gossiping...

The lady in the basement, don't dare venture there.

I had to laugh, after all I was on vacation, enjoying a bourbon. Still it seemed every where I went, the talk led to this house.

On my third night, after a few drinks I became bored, it was raining, thunder broke the silence. I had to see. The house, the basement, I just had to see. I loaded my camera, just in case. 

Folk lore has it that this old woman was be-traded,…

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 3:19pm — No Comments

Pain

Standing, trying to keep focused. Yet the pain dis-focuses you, and is seen by the person you face. You try to look calm, yet project a confused, dis-tracked look about you. You loose the job interview wondering as you rub your feet...what went wrong?

 

Pain, that pretty pain that steals your soul. The one thing that takes away your most important talk, …

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 1:10pm — 3 Comments

Just a thought about our "selves'

I almost always read a profile after I read someone's blog post, and then read the blog post again; in order to better understand the context of that person's life.  But we move around, life is not set in one place, and circumstances change.

Very often......I read about someone whose self-description identifies them as such-and-such, or in a particular place in life.  They are members here for a few years and life changes; for them and around them.  There are divorces, ugly family…

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Added by Dal Maxwell on July 9, 2014 at 11:00am — 29 Comments

My Fuzzy Life

Whats wrong with this picture? I was going to delete it but felt there was a potential story to go along with it.

Yes the picture came out fuzzy. I look sad in it. I was wearing flats and my hair pulled back. My lonely life surrounds me.

My life is fuzzy at the moment, not sure of the future, so the…

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Added by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 10:15am — 1 Comment

Oh Sh*t, XXX with an old friend

What the heck? I know, I know, I did it and well... 

When we get to point where were are comfortable, or where friends we have are comfortable with us in a sexual manner things can change really fast (like 15 minutes) to really weird.

Oddly enough one of my few guy friends who I have known for 20+ years and whom held on as a supporter during my transition has now become the biggest a-hole;and yeah I forgive, and feel bad for him. 

The scene was at my friends house, his…

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Added by Breanne Todd on July 8, 2014 at 10:41pm — 17 Comments

Questioning myself....again

I hope this bog post is received with the intent I offer. 

I logged into PE everyday. I enjoy the profile and pictures of those in possession of more courage than I maintain. In many cases Im amazed at the transformations. The amazement is often a double-edged sword: always thinking to myself "I can do this" and quickly followed by the thought "I'll never pull this off".  In my own vanity I refuse to become just another man in a dress. If I cant do this right, if i cant blend in and…

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Added by Rynnae Thomas on July 8, 2014 at 9:47am — 8 Comments

An Update on Denee Mallon V's Medicare re GRS

I received this from Denee yesterday and she allowed me to pass it on here for your information,

It is a letter emailed by her Lawyer who represented Denee in her Court battle to overturn the Medicare policy refusing GRS to be a Medicare funded operation.

This is an add-on to LindaMarie's blog about this topic.

"spoke with Lxxxx Hxxxxx today and the short update is that it’s still going to take a bit of time to work this out.  I told Lxxxx that Presbyterian…

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Added by Rachel King on July 8, 2014 at 3:11am — 12 Comments

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moved

Posted by carman on July 31, 2014 at 1:09pm 1 Comment

So I can't dance

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 30, 2014 at 12:14pm 0 Comments

Coming out again

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 30, 2014 at 9:25am 7 Comments

The whole stroy

Posted by Roxanne Joganik on July 28, 2014 at 11:51pm 4 Comments

I am simply AMAZED

Posted by Dal Maxwell on July 25, 2014 at 11:40am 1 Comment

Out to my parents

Posted by Janelle Dawn Drake on July 17, 2014 at 9:23am 5 Comments

The things we cannot be

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 15, 2014 at 12:03pm 0 Comments

To wear a dress

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 15, 2014 at 10:49am 11 Comments

OH HAPPY DAY!

Posted by Michelle Stark on July 11, 2014 at 11:37am 4 Comments

I guess I pass ...

Posted by Angeline Foo on July 9, 2014 at 8:06pm 5 Comments

The Fire Side Stories

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 3:19pm 0 Comments

Pain

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 1:10pm 3 Comments

My Fuzzy Life

Posted by LindaMarie Johnson on July 9, 2014 at 10:15am 1 Comment

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