“So where’s your dad, anyway?” The question was asked by a young child who was playing with my son on the trampoline. I was sitting about 10 feet away to keep an eye on things. The other boy was a couple of years older, and my personal childhood experience taught me that older boys were not always hesitant to exercise power by virtue of age and strength. I may not be able to always protect him from this, but I’m sure as hell not letting anything happen on my watch.

My son pointed to…

As we transition, its not uncommon for family/friends to shun us. I come from a very big family, 5 brothers and 4 sisters. I also have 2 daughters and a son.

I have always had support from my mom..who always knew in her heart that I was a girl. Several months after I came out, my 2nd oldest sister started to support me. Only because she started to educate herself on my "condition" and realized I'm still her sibling no matter what.I've really had no contact with the rest of them in the…

A few weeks ago I called my Doctor and asked her how open minded she was. She said she thought she was very open minded, so I booked an appointment with her.

When I was there I talked about how I wanted to move on with my life as Gayle.

I talked about how I wanted to Transition from my male self to being Gayle full time, and what I needed to do to get started.

She told me she would help me in any way she could. That all she wanted for me was to be happy, she gave me a…

BEING THE ONLY ONE LIKE YOU AT YOUR COMPANY AND EVERYONE KNOWS IT?…

Recently I got into what was beginning to look like a commercialist battle with a very naive newbie. Okay. I am going to put this out to you people. I've been ACTIVELY transitioning since September 7th, 2004. What *does* this mean?



It means that upon September 7th of 2004 I began active changes to my life by way of HRT (hormone replacement therapy). This does NOT indicate that was the BEGINNING of my studies of the TG way of life. NOT by a LONG SHOT!

Being a nerd, (not to be…

The first time I picked up Jennifer Finney Boylan’s autobiographical work, She’s Not There; A Life in Two Genders, I was in a pretty terrible place. I hadn’t yet dared to use ‘the T word’ to describe myself, but I was starting to get very close. I paged through it in the Barnes and Noble parking lot while an early November snow began to come down. “This is either going to be so strange that I know I’m on the wrong track, or it’s going to be way too familiar and then I’m in big…

They dyed their hair and dieted themselves to near death. They took steroids to build muscles and got breast implants and nose jobs so they'd resemble their favorite movie stars. They changed names and majors and jobs and husbands and wives. They changed religions and political parties. They moved across the country or the world -- even changed nationalities. Why was gender the one sacred thing we weren’t supposed to change? Who made that rule? huggs…

So lately I have had allot of inner stress and turmoil. 

Wait, I will start by saying that ever since my breast growth began I've done everything to hide it, tight cami's and double t-shirts to the point that I'm burning up on hot days... 

I didn't want to get outed at work like I have read about here on the world-wide-web so I kept everything under wraps... (pun)

About the 4th month into my HRT I noticed my male…

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I had a different kind of Mother's Day than I have ever experienced in my life.  First off, it is different because this is only the second year that my Mom wasn't here to celebrate and enjoy it.  But I did go to see my Godmother, who is my Mom's sister.

My Aunt Kay knows I am transgender having told her about myself some time ago when she commented that I look so different.  We talked for some time about the subject and she is completely acceptable and approving of me; something my…

This was triggered by a post I so elsewhere giving a definition of *coming out*.  Seems a bit obvious the definition doesn't it?  But have you ever stopped to truly consider its ramifications and meaning?   We come out to our fellow workers, family and friends, we come out to society as a whole.  But have we truly and in actuality come out to ourselves?   Oh we say we have because we have acknowledged ourselves in our new gender and life choice.  But have we really?  There is always the tiny…

BUT DADDY I HATE TO SHAVE…….One thing most little boys can’t wait for is the first time they shave.  It is an introduction to manhood, the moment they feel all grown-up. The Aqua Velva man, and all that.  For me it was one of the worst days of my life. 

My facial skin was always very smooth and I never had much body hair so I never worried about having to shave.  Then I joined the army and the little bit of facial hair that was there…

I start my counseling tomorrow 5/14 and I'm so nervous. I have so much to let out. My girlfriend is coming for support and to try and understand what is going on through my head. I am going as my female counterpart which means its the first time I've been out in public like that. I feel it is one step closer to becoming the person I was meant to be. WISH ME LUCK!!!!

What the hell is ‘dysphoria’ anyway? It’s really a question along the same lines as asking what Lupus, Shingles, or Planters Fasciitis are. None of these, by the way involves wolves, roofers, or gardeners, contrary to the naming conventions followed by less elusive ailments like Tennis Elbow. In any case, being transgender, or specifically transsexual, used to be known as ‘Gender Identity Disorder’ and was classified as such in the DSM before they decided to knock it the hell out of there…

Sometimes I just wish I were invisible.

There was a troubling incident yesterday as I was walking to my hair appointment and stopped at a grocery store and on the way home when a guy I use to work with became sexually aggressive in his language (totaly out of the blue).  I feel troubled by both incidents.

 In my old life, I did feel invisible, insignificant, just a nobody.  I was not afraid to walk the streets, I was not afraid to run at night.  Even growing up in the 70’s, I…

Hi girls,



I hope everyone had a good Mother's Day!



I had a nice weekend.  Saturday I had to go to the mall for my fitting for the summer fashion show on May 18.  I dressed casually with pink jeans, a white top and sandals.  I tried on the two outfits I will model:  a maxi dress and capri-cami-shirt blouse combo.  Of course at the mall I couldn't resist going to my favorite stores afterwards. 



Sunday I wore black yoga leggings with a gray strip along with…

my mother and my family won and just about an hour ago, I started feeling anxious.. I tried to figure it out, and I think it is the day. I haven’t had to spend holidays alone, it has been with friends. Today is not a holiday but I started thinking back on past Mother’s days, like the time my mom, sister, her husband and their son celebrated with my mother at a dinner theater. If things were different, maybe I’d be taking mom to a Mother’s day brunch today. I feel terrible right…

This was suppose to a normal Saturday.  We had plans to go with Charlies' family to Morgans Wonderland.  MW is a place for all children from the normal to the challenged.  Our ( I can say that now) grandson has downs syndrome, is four, learned to walk about 6 months ago, etc.

They arrived about 1130.  My step-daughter came in carrying roses and a card.  I thought they were for her father but no.  She turned to me and said Happy Mothers Day and gave me a bug hug and daughter kiss.  I…

This is a re-post of a blog I did before I left last July.

Well like most everyone here I spent my first 45 yrs. hiding/suppressing my "GID".I never had any thoughts of transitioning, as I could satisfy my feelings. I joined the Marines to "fix" myself. Got married, had 3 wonderful kids and was very secure financially. But my life as I knew it was about to change forever the evening of Aug 24, '09 and it only took a split second for it to happen.

I was on my way…