"What a dilemma Jennifer but there you have it the reality of almost every single transgender person on this planet and for many of us a cross to bear especially if we cannot balance both sides. Those of us who can transition and make a go of it as a…"
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Julia Giannopoulos left a comment for Joanna"I'm doing well thank you sweetheart. :O) You look simply knock down gorgeous in your avatar photo Joanna."
Joanna left a comment for Allison Nichole Stover"good for you Allison. My brick came at 45 years of age so I am glad that you were able to get there sooner. I am happy for young trans today who can come to terms sooner than in my day when there was no support structure or information..."
Susan Michelle Elleman left a comment for Joanna"Dear Joanna: You are very welcome, but at the same time I have to thank you for your inspiration. When I read what you have written I can identify with it so much. It is as if we went through a very similar process. In my case I was at home with my…"
Joanna commented on Michelle Wolf's blog post Gender Dysphoria is a Real Bummer"very well expressed Michelle. My disphoria kept me in a fog for decades. I was angry and frustrated and deep in denial because I just did'nt want to admit I had gender issues of any sort. Now its strong and getting stronger and the more I…"
Joanna commented on Stacey Renea Taylor's blog post Kathy meets Stacey"fantastic news Stacey! hold on to that wife of yours!"
Joanna commented on Joanna's blog post What now? "Charlene you have really framed that response with such elegance! We share the exact same challenge and I think we should be closer to number 2 but I sometimes fear that I might be number 1. Why create so much desire in us and keep us in…"
Charlene V. Steele commented on Joanna's blog post What now? "Joanna, thank you for your thoughts. They seem to mirror much of what I wrestle with. Have you somehow been looking into my mind? :)
My Christian faith permeates my self. How I would like to be like most, giving not a…"
Elle James commented on Joanna's blog post What now? "I know Erica and Joanna. My burning bush point was a bit tongue n cheek, but still a lot of truth in it. Getting a "Thou shalt do...." from on high would be nice though! I need to hold out at least another year before I…"
Joanna commented on Joanna's blog post What now? "I'm afraid that I agree with Erica in that there won't be one so we're on our own.Pray on it Elle and hopefully something will click into place. Living as a woman is something I need to do in order to answer some deep questioning."
Erica Copeland commented on Joanna's blog post What now? ""Where is a burning bush when one needs one!" I think that you desire a "burning bush" says it all Elle! Quit "beating around the bush" LOL"
Elle James commented on Joanna's blog post What now? "Nicely said Joanna. My pastor was preaching on the calling that God puts on our lives this past Sunday and it made me think; is my calling to be a woman? If so, why would God put that on me? I fight it, does doing so mean I'm…"
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- I am a:
- Male to Female Transgender Person
- I Express My Gender Variance:
- Out and About Part Time.
- My Gender Status is:
- Experimenting Transgender (Possibly taking hormones prescribed or “Do-it-yourself” – May be “in “or “unable” to start therapy – Possibly questioning or self diagnosing as transsexual – May be presenting full or part time as a female)
- I have undergone or been prescribed:
- Laser Hair Removal
- Relationship Status:
- Divorced (Kids are Grown)
- I am interested in:
- Support Groups, Friends, Networking, Chatting
- I am NOT interested in:
- Camming, Men, Admirers, Swingers
- About My Profession, Skills and Special Training:
- Engineering
- 100 Words About Me:
- 50 year old trangendered person living life one day at a time. I have been this way since I can remember and am now increasingly happy to be who I am without guilt or fear. I have a blog that chronicles my journey and experiences with this curse/blessing we call being transgendered - joannabefree.blogspot.ca. You can find a lot more about who I am there.
You will also find me running around Montreal in a dress and heels..I will be very open to exchange ideas,thoughts and random musings with intelligent folk and maybe meet a local friend (that would be a bonus). I welcome your contact. Life is short so let's love ourselves and others as much as we can!
Peace! Joanna
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What now?
Posted on May 9, 2013 at 1:08pm 10 Comments 3 Likes
I now know that my cross gender behaviour has always been about internal identity instead of arousal. This is all the more apparent as I age. As any elements of eroticism wane, the identity gains increasingly in strength. The identity was strong in the early years then became confused during the turbulent middle years but of late it is back with a clear focus. That identity, in fact, never left me but I merely decided to ignore and suppress its existence in order to try and “fix”…
Read More Moving forward
Posted on April 26, 2013 at 7:30am 5 Comments 4 Likes
I’m now in the process of contrasting the separate lives I am currently leading both as a male and as a female. The contrast is quite stark.
I feel that I am more peaceful, happy and jovial as Joanna. I am less brooding and there is less to think about in terms of how to be perceived or how to behave in public so that I appear male. I communicate more freely with others and think less about posturing with a male facade. I think it feels more like how I was meant to be.
But I am…
Read More The Taste for Life
Posted on April 23, 2013 at 8:00am 10 Comments 3 Likes
It’s funny how I am becoming more emotional these days. Everything has been magnified.
I cry more easily but I also anger more easily. But it’s not anger from internal rage or depression it’s just that life tastes fuller to me because I experience it with a fuller palette which is available to me now.
When you have disphoria it’s like living life under a cloud which dampens everything. Simply dealing with it in more concrete ways has made all the difference in the world to…
Read More we've come a long way...
Posted on March 28, 2013 at 9:47am 9 Comments 2 Likes
I wonder in retrospect just how much I suffered from a type of low grade depression during my life. When you have gender issues that you are not tending to or ignoring, there is a type of fog that you are constantly under except you don’t want to acknowledge it in hopes that it will simply go away. Attempting to suppress these feelings undoubtedly plays a part in stunting your emotional health.
I only know this now in contrasting how I feel today. I have a far healthier outlook on…
Read MoreComment Wall (47 comments)
- At 9:00pm on May 18, 2013, Julia Giannopoulos said…
I'm doing well thank you sweetheart. :O) You look simply knock down gorgeous in your avatar photo Joanna.
- At 5:09pm on May 14, 2013, Susan Michelle Elleman said…
Dear Joanna: You are very welcome, but at the same time I have to thank you for your inspiration. When I read what you have written I can identify with it so much. It is as if we went through a very similar process. In my case I was at home with my mother and three sisters, and I identified with them as a group. We moved a lot so I played with them, dressed like them, and was interested in the same things. But as I grew, so did my confusion and my isolation as I was forced more and more into male social roles. Then I suppressed it like you, and my reawakening was similar to yours. As I read your story, it sounds so much like what I went through. I can definitely relate. It makes me feel good that it was not "Just me" and no one else. I say this from a position where I am so comfortable with my womanhood, and so at peace with who I really am. Hugs. Love, Susan.
- At 11:53am on April 30, 2013, Susan Michelle Elleman said…
Dear Joanna: Thank you so much for inviting me to be a contact. You look beautiful, you have such great taste in clothing. Again thank you so much. Hugs. Love, Susan.
- At 9:41pm on April 7, 2013,
Crissy Greene said… Hello Joanna, I've seen you on here & read many of your posts but kept neglecting to drop you a message?.........So here I am to wish you a happy day & hope you are doing well.......bye for now,
Crissy
- At 8:34pm on March 29, 2013, Charlene V. Steele said…
Joanna, thank you for the friendship invite. I so long for a connection with others who do more than accept that I am trans, but really understand me as a trans person. I have been blessed with numerous friends who have willingly accepted the male me who is trans. I fear they would not be so receiving if I "pushed" the real / female me on them.
It is my hope that here real people can help me to be as real as I know and long myself to be. Your interest in reaching out as a friend is deeply appreciated. Such care means so much to me at this particular time in my life. Thank you.
- At 11:31am on March 25, 2013,
Adeena Dawn Forrester said… Thank you Joanna for the thoughtful Birthday wish! It does mean a lot!
Love and Hugs,
Adeena
- At 10:09am on March 21, 2013,
Lauren Somers said… Mornin' Joanna,
Tough to manage...That's putting in mildly ..I guess I am managing it OK but it sure does a number on me mentally. On the outside I'm sure I appear fine but inside there's a bit of turmoil. Trying to satisfy my needs and then that of my family is as you say...tough for sure. But you know that already as do most all of us. It's funny how so many of us have basically the same story. Most of us headed in the same direction but taking different paths to get there. A difficult journey for sure.
Lauren
- At 5:00pm on March 13, 2013, Julia Giannopoulos said…
You say such beautiful things concerning myself Joanna, thank you for that. sweetheart.
- At 10:57am on March 9, 2013,
Galina Edwards said… Thank You Joanna, I try read most of your concerns and I am always here to help if I can in private or public.
Gina
- At 10:02pm on March 7, 2013, Lauren Somers said…
You must ne tough to handle the long winter. I think of moving to Canada but the long winters don't let me think about it for long. It's all what you're used to I guess. I can't take the heat either so I guess I'm in the right place.
Lauren
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